One hot night.

I waited in the window, I watched his jeep pull up. He couldn't remember which house I lived at. He park in front of the house across the street. I hesitated. Waited to see if hed drive away. I had butterflies.I tip toed out and jetted across the street. He was nervous, I could tell by his gestures.We talked with ease.He lived 2 blocks away. He lived in a grand house. A mansion. Ive told him his house was beautiful many times before. He always responded the same way every time. It wasn't his house. It was his parents. Its all different in his eyes., its not a mansion its a house. Hes not rich, his parents are. To me its all the same. His house is a maze, its dark.His parents are gone out.We are alone.I grab his hand, I need to be lead.He pats the wall, searching for the light switch. He then leads me to his bedroom. We breath harmoniously. He eyes me, his eyes light up. He smiles. I smile.His bed is big, its soft. He motions for me to come closer. I make the first move.Im in his arms.

Hes got the softest hair and skin to match!All this dancing around is just a fantasy. I can see both worlds and I wish they would collide. But if you can get the milk for free, why buy the cow? And I know that applies to me. Its not that I am infatuated with him, but Ive had a crush on him for a long time, hes framed in my mind as the ideal guy. I know hes not perfect, but he's etched in my mind as a dream. In reality he maybe completely different.

Right at this moment my needs are met, everything is in line. And my head silences. I feel more comfortable around him when we are alone., but every other situation it feel different. I dont feel uncomfortable when Im near him, I sure don't feel ashamed, it actually feels great to have a secret.

Hes so down to earth and modest. He makes me feel great. He talks to me like a friend and gets nervous. He was so excited tonight,very passionate , filled with so much energy. But back to the cow quote, in this case he was never going to buy the cow. So I think it was either take it or leave it. I think I took the chance that I was given, it wasn't going to be any different.And I know taking the chance or not taking it was going to give me the same equation. I won't stop dreaming, but I know when the dreams ends and when I do wake up it wont be in his arms. Its ok because its not meant to be. I can feel it. But I can still enjoy him in my own way.

All I can think about is his touch, it was soft but strong.He would grab me then caress me . The only problem, his only downfall was his kiss. I guess the kiss differs with the sitaution.His whole mouth covers mine.I can feel his teeth on my lips.His whole tongue licks the back of my mouth. Its like hes hungry, hes eating something. He slurps and pants. heavily. I should of told him. I should of said slow down. Relax. But I wouldn't want to hurt his feelings, or ruin the moment.