Date!

I had a date last night! A real, honest to goodness date last night! My last dates consisted of making out, fighting, and drinking. My friend from school Jerrica set me up with her Brother. We had a double date. Movies and Dinner. Final Destination 3 was the movie. It was horribly gory, which meant leaning in closer to Donnie. Our knees touched, arm arms touched. His hand grazed my knee. There was minimal conversation. Spurts through out the night. But we all joked around a lot, and laughed a lot. I was nervous. More nervous because it was like I was on a date with 3 people, instead of one. Jerrica was always looking over to see if we were touching, or talkin, or having fun.

At Dinner, he rested his hand on my knee. It sent chills up my body. I held his hand under the table. It felt so great because things were just happening. Because I had butterflies, I was actually nervous. And I did not find anything wrong with him. I was content. Which never happens. I am giddy. I can't stop thinking about him. But I am worried. Because I am admitting I like him therefore jinxing myself into a failed relationship. I felt the signs . I was getting the vibe. But I talked to Jerrica online and she didn't mention anything. Which has to be a bad sign. And Im too scared to ask her what donnie thought. I don't want to get a bad response. So I am sort of going nuts. Im scared for once. Is it because I am not in control? For once maybe I won't be the one who has to hurt someone. Im the one waiting, and wondering and wishing.
It feels horrible lol.

P.s He paid for everything. Wow. What a gentleman!!!