I miss him. I just read all his emails. Ive saved them all. All 42 of them. I printed them out a long time ago and put them in my box. After two years the first email and the rest are still in a folder in my email account. Im sad. I need to realize hes never going away. I keep relaspings' and losing control. And my strong moments I fall into remission, but he's still there. He's a diease that can not be cured. I am lost at sea, and no one will ever find me. Theres nothing i can do. Marks got me tied down and locked up and he doesn't even know it
This is the email I got the day before he broke up with me. Excuse his bad spelling and kind of ghetto talk lol. I didn't see it coming.... what went wrong?
Hey baby face
im just sitting at mikes drinking and thinking of how much i love you.. Im gonna call you tomrw not tonight. i hope thats alright with you. cuz im gonna go sleep in a sec lol im feeling sick to my lilttle stomcah
i cant wait to see you for X-mas im already getting exiceted i hope this makes you feel good that im writing you this email while trying to chillin with my friends there all making fun of me calling me whpped :(:(:( total not true lol cuz i own u memmba :p jk
cuttie i love u so much dont no what id do with out you and dont worry ill never break up with u promise. ok i promise i promise i promise :):):) i love u and im in love you. for now and forever i promise this to you.
i was on the net trying to find fucking pink sneakers and its getting hard lol. its not very easy at all. but im still gonna try untill i found them.,. i promise to you that i will find u some PINK sneakers ill fucking make them myself lol
i gtg now there gonna start pulling cords out the wall so ill call u tomrw moring as soon as i wake up
i love u babyface x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x
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4 comments:
Thanks!:)
It will be 2 years in december since we broke up. Its crazy that so much time can pass and my wounds are still there. But there not much I can do. I only have a few bad days here and there.
Does it take that long to get over someone? :-(
The scar will always be there. Always. And during certain times, it will flare up, unexpectedly. But it's okay. You can remember the good times. I remember the same thing happening to me one December. I got a letter saying I would be loved "forever and ever and ever and ever and ever...." You get the idea. The next contact I had, it was all over. Just. Like. That.
It took *years* to move on. But I was never the same. Some of that is good, some of it not so good. But I survived and did eventually move on.
The year of the breakup? 1988.
It took more than three years but less than 5.
D.
You commented on my blog a while ago and I never got around to replying back. You got to my site from Melanie's btw. I was just going through some of your entries, and wow. That so explains how I feel.. alot. I had no idea the breakup was coming when it did and for the longest time I wondered where it came from. It'll be a year in December. It's hard, but I have total faith that it's going to get better, for both of us. You seem like a cool person, feel free to stop by my site anytime!
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