KOKOMO! a casual family restaurant, that is where donnie and I went for supper tonight. It was ok food, I didn't hate it, it was just a little to bland for me. But getting out of the house and going out to dinner felt like a treat.
The dollarstore has become our second home, I believe were there every night this week. We always need to pick some up, and you can basically get everything there and for a dollar. I have become obessed with fridge magnets, I bought a really cute white and black kitty magnet. I want to go get another. There are kinds of animals and they have long string legs and arms. There adorable. We bought some cat toys, because on Sunday we adopting a little kitten. We went to see the kitten last night and it was adorable, so the women told us the kitten will be ours on Sunday. She wanted to finish the deworming medicine.
We spent most of the night working on the broom closet donnie built for us. As you remember from previous post I complained of our lack of storage room. The only room we had a place to put something is in a corner, and we couldn't find anything to fix that area. Donnie enjoys working with his hands, so he was quite excited to build this broom closet. Its a giant triangle. It will hold our broom, mop, bucket and all our cleaning supplies, and hopefully we will be able to fit our vacuum cleaner in it too. I painted it tonight a sky blue. We were just going to paint it white to match our cupboards. But then I seen this blue paint in the discount section. I wanted a colorful kitchen, and since everything is white, this will fix in nicely. We are going to paint a shelf in the sky blue paint too, so it kind of blends more in the kitchen, there will be more blue. I will post a picture when its done.
Our next project is making a coffee table. It will be a big thick table,stained cherry wood, and then on top we will be putting bright greenish yellow tiles. Its gonna look fab! We are planning on making too end tables too and a bench for the bottom of our bed. I know it will become a reality when I get more money.
Ohohohohoh I almost forgot, I got the job. The testing went fine, and I bomb the interview, I left that day with the job. I start on Monday at 7:30 am. I train for 3 weeks these hours.
Anyways its late... bed time... Donnie went into work to get some extra hours. So Im lonely. I won't have a good sleep, I get scared.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Monday, November 27, 2006
Amanda and her golden headset.
I was awaken by a phone call from a call center, I had a telephone interview and I go in tomorrow for testing. I need this job. I need it for the money and for my sanity. I have been in Halifax for 3 weeks and I've applied to over 30 jobs, and I've spent more than 80 percent of my time sitting by the phone and checking my emails. And to my surprise I haven't heard one response. I've been racking my brain wondering, if I wrote my cover letters wrong, or if I had spelling mistakes, obviously I didn't have enough experience. Understandable, but I thought someone would or could take a chance on me.
Donnie is excited, I know he is willing to pay the bills for as long as he needs to, but I think hes getting a little frustrated. I know there are things he wants to buy, or things he wants us to do, but we don't ever have much left over money. I feel a little inadequate, I feel like I am not earning money, or doing anything useful though out the day. I feel bad for spending Donnies money, and I feel a little angry that I can not buy the things I want. Splurge.
I have become a chef, supper time is my favorite time. Donnie laughs at all my recipes, and he usually thinks they sound gross. But he hasn't been disappointed yet. Donnie a little fussy, he's fussy with sauces and veggies. I think he's more into plain food, meat and potatoes. I made Chessy Chicken Rolls the other night and I made Beefy Biscuits tonight. I've been finding recipes online. And I've been trying them out every night. I make full meals and desserts.
I hope someone comes to visit soon, I need to show off my cooking skills.
I feel like I need to be doing something through the day, sitting on the couch watching TV gets old. I clean too. So I just need this job, my head, heart and wallet have been suffering since I came here.
Donnie is excited, I know he is willing to pay the bills for as long as he needs to, but I think hes getting a little frustrated. I know there are things he wants to buy, or things he wants us to do, but we don't ever have much left over money. I feel a little inadequate, I feel like I am not earning money, or doing anything useful though out the day. I feel bad for spending Donnies money, and I feel a little angry that I can not buy the things I want. Splurge.
I have become a chef, supper time is my favorite time. Donnie laughs at all my recipes, and he usually thinks they sound gross. But he hasn't been disappointed yet. Donnie a little fussy, he's fussy with sauces and veggies. I think he's more into plain food, meat and potatoes. I made Chessy Chicken Rolls the other night and I made Beefy Biscuits tonight. I've been finding recipes online. And I've been trying them out every night. I make full meals and desserts.
I hope someone comes to visit soon, I need to show off my cooking skills.
I feel like I need to be doing something through the day, sitting on the couch watching TV gets old. I clean too. So I just need this job, my head, heart and wallet have been suffering since I came here.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Saturday, November 18, 2006
little ole' Hubley
Writen on Nov.10,06
Lonely. I am in the living room and Donnie is in bed sleeping, he’s been there since 9:30. I just cleaned the bathroom there was so much dirt, I cleaned along the edges and clean the bathtub again. I sat on the toilet to pee and I smelt stinky piss, I searched everywheres and I looked in the bathtub, and the smell got stronger. I ripped up the little flower mats and it was yellow underneath. Ice peed in the bathtub. Later that day he pooped in our bedroom. The carpet is already really stained. Donnie washed it with a carpet cleaner, but it still stinks and the stains didn’t disappear. I sweep the floors like 10 times a day. I never walk around the floor without my dollar store slippers. We couldn’t even afford a pair of real slippers. The floors look dirty, I’ve tried sweeping them and mopping and they still look the same. I was on my hands and knees scrubbing. There’s so much dust and dirt along the baseboards. Its so disgusting. The blinds are dirty, the windows are dirty.
Ice has been hiding under the bed most of the day. He seems just as lonely as me. He’s so bored. I don’t know if I will make it here. Maybe it will get easier when I get a job. OR should I say if. The employers aren’t biting my bait. And I am sort of glad. I feel so depressed. I feel lonely. I don’t want to work. I feel so out of place here. We live in the middle of nowheres. We have to go into town to get close to anything. It’s so dark at night. I feel like we are living in our own separate world. No one even calls me. I have to call everyone and I feel like I am taking up there time. There are so many things that I want for the apartment to spruce it up. I need to make it feel more like a home. We found a couch that we adore, but since I am unemployed I couldn’t apply for the credit card. And since Donnie has bad credit we didn’t get the couch. We are going to wait until Donnie gets him profit sharing. But I have a feeling that when that time comes we won’t get the couch. Nothing has been turning out like it was suppose to. We were supposed to have the internet, and we don’t. We were supposed to work for Andrew on Sundays to make extra money, we haven’t started. I was hoping to have some interviews lined up for this week, and I haven’t heard back from anyone, and I haven’t sent off too many resumes either because of the no internet problem.
Donnie’s been working extra hours, which he has to because we need the money, but it just adds to my loneliness, of course. I can’t even figure out the channels, its takes me about 20 minutes to find the show I want to watch. We don’t even get MTV. This is the channel I watch the most. I can’t even leave the house without Donnie, there’s nothing close enough to walk to, and I’d get lost and bored alone.
When I dreamt of moving to Halifax, I dreamt of an awesome job, going downtown at night, eating of restaurants, meeting tons of friends, stylish furniture and accessories and shopping. I, for sure, didn’t expect the apartment to look the way it does. Nothing has met my expectations. And I am trying so hard to be patient, I’m trying to be open minded, I am trying to be easier on Donnie. I am just disappointed with the way our new, joint life has turned out. I am going to try and be strong and give this more time. Its just a lonely time for me. And I don’t know who to turn to, or how to change it.
Lonely. I am in the living room and Donnie is in bed sleeping, he’s been there since 9:30. I just cleaned the bathroom there was so much dirt, I cleaned along the edges and clean the bathtub again. I sat on the toilet to pee and I smelt stinky piss, I searched everywheres and I looked in the bathtub, and the smell got stronger. I ripped up the little flower mats and it was yellow underneath. Ice peed in the bathtub. Later that day he pooped in our bedroom. The carpet is already really stained. Donnie washed it with a carpet cleaner, but it still stinks and the stains didn’t disappear. I sweep the floors like 10 times a day. I never walk around the floor without my dollar store slippers. We couldn’t even afford a pair of real slippers. The floors look dirty, I’ve tried sweeping them and mopping and they still look the same. I was on my hands and knees scrubbing. There’s so much dust and dirt along the baseboards. Its so disgusting. The blinds are dirty, the windows are dirty.
Ice has been hiding under the bed most of the day. He seems just as lonely as me. He’s so bored. I don’t know if I will make it here. Maybe it will get easier when I get a job. OR should I say if. The employers aren’t biting my bait. And I am sort of glad. I feel so depressed. I feel lonely. I don’t want to work. I feel so out of place here. We live in the middle of nowheres. We have to go into town to get close to anything. It’s so dark at night. I feel like we are living in our own separate world. No one even calls me. I have to call everyone and I feel like I am taking up there time. There are so many things that I want for the apartment to spruce it up. I need to make it feel more like a home. We found a couch that we adore, but since I am unemployed I couldn’t apply for the credit card. And since Donnie has bad credit we didn’t get the couch. We are going to wait until Donnie gets him profit sharing. But I have a feeling that when that time comes we won’t get the couch. Nothing has been turning out like it was suppose to. We were supposed to have the internet, and we don’t. We were supposed to work for Andrew on Sundays to make extra money, we haven’t started. I was hoping to have some interviews lined up for this week, and I haven’t heard back from anyone, and I haven’t sent off too many resumes either because of the no internet problem.
Donnie’s been working extra hours, which he has to because we need the money, but it just adds to my loneliness, of course. I can’t even figure out the channels, its takes me about 20 minutes to find the show I want to watch. We don’t even get MTV. This is the channel I watch the most. I can’t even leave the house without Donnie, there’s nothing close enough to walk to, and I’d get lost and bored alone.
When I dreamt of moving to Halifax, I dreamt of an awesome job, going downtown at night, eating of restaurants, meeting tons of friends, stylish furniture and accessories and shopping. I, for sure, didn’t expect the apartment to look the way it does. Nothing has met my expectations. And I am trying so hard to be patient, I’m trying to be open minded, I am trying to be easier on Donnie. I am just disappointed with the way our new, joint life has turned out. I am going to try and be strong and give this more time. Its just a lonely time for me. And I don’t know who to turn to, or how to change it.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
First night in our apartment
I am actually typing this off line. At the moment we do not have the internet. But soon, hopefully. I spent the first night in my apartment, Donnie and I. And I couldn’t sleep, I guess it’s the new surroundings, my whole body and mind is disorientated. I heard every noise, and the smell was different. It seemed darker than most nights. Our apartment is completely chaotic, boxes upon boxes, big blue garbage bags holding my prized possessions; my clothes. I can’t even think straight when I stand in our kitchen/living room, you can barely see the floor, and we have to tip-toe around everything. I don’t even know how we will get everything in order and organized. It’s overwhelming.
We arrived in Halifax a little after 9; we unloaded the car and then headed to Sobey’s to do our first grocery shopping excursion. I was estimating a 200 bill, and everything thought we were crazy. They were sure that we would spend double that. But our grand total was 197.67, and my sisters gave us a $20 gift certificate. So it was even cheaper. After we got home and put everything away, we remember a few items that we had forgotten, but I think we did fantastic. It only took us close to hours. Haha. I can’t believe we were shopping in a grocery store that long. My cupboards and refrigerator still look bare.
I woke up when Donnie was leaving for work, which was 5:30 am. I was awake way long before that, but I decided if I couldn’t sleep I might as well get up and get started. I have been cleaning for almost 10 hours. I didn’t even take any breaks. I sat down for 10 mins to eat a bowl of cereal. I know I accomplished a lot but I still feel I didn’t make a dent.
I started with the bath. And scrubbed everything down, even the walls and the door. Everything was dusty and gross. Then I hung up our colorful shower curtain and began folding and putting away our towels and linens. Tough thing to accomplish because we have limited amount of storage in this apartment. There is one closet in the whole apartment, no coat closet, not broom closet. We have like 6 cupboards and 3 drawers.
The bathroom is pretty much finished, I just have some pictures and a hand towel rod to hang. But the kitchen is another story. It is still in progress. I washed all the cupboard inside and out. And cleaned the store and oven, I am living the inside of the oven for Donnie, it is disgusting!! I had to wash most of our dishes, and take them all out of the boxes and packages. We have so much garbage piled up in our bedroom. Everything is being stored in the bedroom. We are currently sleeping in the living room on the futon. We are going back home on the weekend to bring the rest of our stuff down, including my comfy bed. I had a lot of trouble again with the storage. We just don’t have enough room for everything. We are going to have to buy a microwave stand with shelves in it. And buy a wardrobe, and maybe some sort of storage unit for our broom, mop, bucket and other stuff. But I don’t even think we have enough room for all of that. The apartment is lets say cozy. Which actually means that it is tiny. We’ll see how it turns out, and if we can fix everything.
I am so worried about finding a job. I am really nervous about job interviews, and I don’t really feel like I am ready to work in the field I studied for. It’s a big step from working in retail.
We left Ice in Moncton until we come back on the weekend to get him. I am glad we didn’t take him this time because he would of went mad with all the chaos. I miss him, I know I will feel better when he is here with me. He’s like my little baby.
I made pasta salad tonight, for tomorrow’s supper. And a garden salad for tonight. We having that and homemade pita pizzas. I am getting hungry, I can’t wait for Donnie to come home. He’s so cute he has called me like 5 times to check up on me. I am feeling a little lonely, but my sisters and mom have called me. I can’t wait until we get our house phone hooked up. I can’t wait for my bed. And our new couch, a rug and to be able to see the ugly floor.
We arrived in Halifax a little after 9; we unloaded the car and then headed to Sobey’s to do our first grocery shopping excursion. I was estimating a 200 bill, and everything thought we were crazy. They were sure that we would spend double that. But our grand total was 197.67, and my sisters gave us a $20 gift certificate. So it was even cheaper. After we got home and put everything away, we remember a few items that we had forgotten, but I think we did fantastic. It only took us close to hours. Haha. I can’t believe we were shopping in a grocery store that long. My cupboards and refrigerator still look bare.
I woke up when Donnie was leaving for work, which was 5:30 am. I was awake way long before that, but I decided if I couldn’t sleep I might as well get up and get started. I have been cleaning for almost 10 hours. I didn’t even take any breaks. I sat down for 10 mins to eat a bowl of cereal. I know I accomplished a lot but I still feel I didn’t make a dent.
I started with the bath. And scrubbed everything down, even the walls and the door. Everything was dusty and gross. Then I hung up our colorful shower curtain and began folding and putting away our towels and linens. Tough thing to accomplish because we have limited amount of storage in this apartment. There is one closet in the whole apartment, no coat closet, not broom closet. We have like 6 cupboards and 3 drawers.
The bathroom is pretty much finished, I just have some pictures and a hand towel rod to hang. But the kitchen is another story. It is still in progress. I washed all the cupboard inside and out. And cleaned the store and oven, I am living the inside of the oven for Donnie, it is disgusting!! I had to wash most of our dishes, and take them all out of the boxes and packages. We have so much garbage piled up in our bedroom. Everything is being stored in the bedroom. We are currently sleeping in the living room on the futon. We are going back home on the weekend to bring the rest of our stuff down, including my comfy bed. I had a lot of trouble again with the storage. We just don’t have enough room for everything. We are going to have to buy a microwave stand with shelves in it. And buy a wardrobe, and maybe some sort of storage unit for our broom, mop, bucket and other stuff. But I don’t even think we have enough room for all of that. The apartment is lets say cozy. Which actually means that it is tiny. We’ll see how it turns out, and if we can fix everything.
I am so worried about finding a job. I am really nervous about job interviews, and I don’t really feel like I am ready to work in the field I studied for. It’s a big step from working in retail.
We left Ice in Moncton until we come back on the weekend to get him. I am glad we didn’t take him this time because he would of went mad with all the chaos. I miss him, I know I will feel better when he is here with me. He’s like my little baby.
I made pasta salad tonight, for tomorrow’s supper. And a garden salad for tonight. We having that and homemade pita pizzas. I am getting hungry, I can’t wait for Donnie to come home. He’s so cute he has called me like 5 times to check up on me. I am feeling a little lonely, but my sisters and mom have called me. I can’t wait until we get our house phone hooked up. I can’t wait for my bed. And our new couch, a rug and to be able to see the ugly floor.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Hit the road Jack
Days before we leave for Halifax things just seem to be falling apart. Our Brand New camera broke. We didn't even have it for 2 weeks. And yesterday Donnies car broke. And when he was taking it to his dads work to fix it, something on his tire broke and he went into the ditch.
Donnies dad was supose to be moving down all our big things today, but know they have to spend all day working on his car. So I am not sure if we are still going to be moving on Tuesday like planned.
We are both quiet stressed out. Im an finished work. Which feels great. Two girls from work chiped in and bought me a mop bucket full of cleaning supplies. There was tons of stuff. Thye must fo spent like 50 bucks. And then my boss bought me 4 towels and a box of cholates. And Catherine bought me a cordless phone. And my familys have a family night for me, including nick, and donnie. Which is going to be fun.
I also graduated. I didn't actually attend the ceremony. I really didn't care to go, I barely know anyone and I hated the school. My mom bought me a purse, a pair of dres pants, and some headbands for graduating. I love presents.
I wanted to go to the mall today and pick up some more things, and maybe go Donnie a cheering up present. I was gonna get him a new hat, or a hoodie. We'll see tho, its kind of cool out and sooooo windy. I just want to stay inside all day. I am hoping they will fix Donnies car today. I haven't really see him all week.
Last night we went to Boo at the Zoo, which was really fun. I actually got scared quite a few times. My little sister laura came with me and Donnie, and his sister Jerrica and Catherine. We had a blast. It was cold ou, but we still had a lot of fun. We took tons of pictures of course!!! I was pissed tho that we didn't have our new camera with us. Bummer
Donnies dad was supose to be moving down all our big things today, but know they have to spend all day working on his car. So I am not sure if we are still going to be moving on Tuesday like planned.
We are both quiet stressed out. Im an finished work. Which feels great. Two girls from work chiped in and bought me a mop bucket full of cleaning supplies. There was tons of stuff. Thye must fo spent like 50 bucks. And then my boss bought me 4 towels and a box of cholates. And Catherine bought me a cordless phone. And my familys have a family night for me, including nick, and donnie. Which is going to be fun.
I also graduated. I didn't actually attend the ceremony. I really didn't care to go, I barely know anyone and I hated the school. My mom bought me a purse, a pair of dres pants, and some headbands for graduating. I love presents.
I wanted to go to the mall today and pick up some more things, and maybe go Donnie a cheering up present. I was gonna get him a new hat, or a hoodie. We'll see tho, its kind of cool out and sooooo windy. I just want to stay inside all day. I am hoping they will fix Donnies car today. I haven't really see him all week.
Last night we went to Boo at the Zoo, which was really fun. I actually got scared quite a few times. My little sister laura came with me and Donnie, and his sister Jerrica and Catherine. We had a blast. It was cold ou, but we still had a lot of fun. We took tons of pictures of course!!! I was pissed tho that we didn't have our new camera with us. Bummer
Monday, October 16, 2006
Sunday, October 08, 2006
5 dollar cab ride
Donnie and I spent thanksgiving apart, he is in Halifax working and Im at home. This is our first thanksgiving with many more to come, but I am bummed that we wasn't here to spend it with me. When I last called him he was on his way to our apartment to eat kraft dinner and go to bed at 6pm. The poor boy is pooped out. He works such long hours. 12 hours shifts, then usually goes home and sleeps like 3 hours and got back in and works 12 more hours. I couldn't do that! I don't even think I will be able to bear to work 8 hours shifts a day. Yuck. I don't think I was meant to be a working women lol
I babysat tonight to make some extra cash, any penny extra I can earn is a big help. We are desperately broke, all our money goes on bills and towards the apartment. I really need to start saving for our first rent and groceries.
My mom bought me a mop, Kleenex, light bulbs, a set of wicker baskets and 2 folding wooded standing trays. I was very excited. We have pretty much everything we need for the apartment. But there are thousands of things I want still.
Im scared about Ice, Im worried the move will be really hard on him.He'll have to sit in the car for a 3 hour drive and then get used to a new apartment with out his family. I hope he likes it. I tell him everyday that hes moving, and that he will love it. I like to think he can understand me.
Donnie and Ice are soo cute together. They rub there heads together. Its adorable.
Heres a cute picture of Ice and Bam. They don't get along at all, so we were surprised to come home and see them laying together on Lauras bed.
I babysat tonight to make some extra cash, any penny extra I can earn is a big help. We are desperately broke, all our money goes on bills and towards the apartment. I really need to start saving for our first rent and groceries.
My mom bought me a mop, Kleenex, light bulbs, a set of wicker baskets and 2 folding wooded standing trays. I was very excited. We have pretty much everything we need for the apartment. But there are thousands of things I want still.
Im scared about Ice, Im worried the move will be really hard on him.He'll have to sit in the car for a 3 hour drive and then get used to a new apartment with out his family. I hope he likes it. I tell him everyday that hes moving, and that he will love it. I like to think he can understand me.
Donnie and Ice are soo cute together. They rub there heads together. Its adorable.
Heres a cute picture of Ice and Bam. They don't get along at all, so we were surprised to come home and see them laying together on Lauras bed.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
A big daze!
Highlights of October
- We got our futon today!
- Our dell computer and digital camera order is all messed up. I have spent the last 3 days on the phone will Dell tryin to figure it out. I think we have like 3 computers and 3 digital cameras on order. I have no idea how that happened.
- My room is a diaster, boxes and garbage bags every wheres.
- On Saturday we packed Donnies car with 2 big book shelves, boxes, clothes, and our buys from that week and sent them down to Halifax.
- Ive been doing my last week of school at home independantly. Which I haven't been working on it very well. I think Im leaving it all to the last minute.
- Im broke. And it was so depressing going to the mall with my sister. Seeing all the new fall clothes out, that I couldn't buy. I don't even have enough money to buy deordorant and shampoo. Im poor.
- Im trying to fight this cold Ive had for 2 weeks now. I just can't seem to get rid of it.
Friday, September 29, 2006
I love shopping....
Donnie and I order a laptop and a new digital camera. Yippie! It will be here in 2 weeks. Can't wait.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Soon to be on our own
So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
Soon to be on our own
So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
Soon to be on our own
So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.
Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.
Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.
This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.
We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.
Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Cat and I took our famous late night drives. She picked me up at 11 ish and I positive this would not be turning into a late night. But, of course, it did. Silly me. We were out until 2:30. We drove for a while and then decided to forfill our cravings for chocolate cake with boiled icing. We drove to Sailsbury to the Big stop. I was all decked out in my bright pink pj pants, fake uggs and a big green hoodie. I looked beautiful lol. But I felt rather undressed. But what the heck, its just an Trucker resturaunt.
We were basically the only ones there. We ordered a cold plate and shared it. But it took 10 mins of pleading. And We shared a bleberry cheese cake. DELISH!! Through out our meal we played "The orignal IQ TESTER" Its a block of wood with I think 14 holes and you stick little pegs into 13 of the holes. Then you jump the pegs, removing the one you had jumped. Like checkers...sort of. Anyways you try to get down to one. I got down to two 3 times. Cat only made it to 3. She was a tad jealous lol. I can't help it that I am "above average iq" and shes "just soso" lol.
I didn't get in bed until like 3 am. Guess who didn't go to school the nest day?? Amanda.
I just finshed my exam, and now Im home being bored. I going to the mall with my sister to look around. I have money... not much, but I want to spend it.lol
We were basically the only ones there. We ordered a cold plate and shared it. But it took 10 mins of pleading. And We shared a bleberry cheese cake. DELISH!! Through out our meal we played "The orignal IQ TESTER" Its a block of wood with I think 14 holes and you stick little pegs into 13 of the holes. Then you jump the pegs, removing the one you had jumped. Like checkers...sort of. Anyways you try to get down to one. I got down to two 3 times. Cat only made it to 3. She was a tad jealous lol. I can't help it that I am "above average iq" and shes "just soso" lol.
I didn't get in bed until like 3 am. Guess who didn't go to school the nest day?? Amanda.
I just finshed my exam, and now Im home being bored. I going to the mall with my sister to look around. I have money... not much, but I want to spend it.lol
Sunday, September 03, 2006
times ticking away
Donnie just dropped me off at my house it is 1:25 am. We went to Jessika and Nick's apartment to watch some movies and just chill. We watched "From Dusk to Dawn" I thought it was kind of corny but still cool. Its soo hard to pick a movie when its us 4. Because we've all seen too many movies.
I worked all weekend, which actually went by sort of quickly. But today my body feels real stiff and my bones keep cracking. I feel like an old lady. It was fairly busy at work, yet still boring. Back to school brings out everyone.
Last night I had a sleep over at Donnies. We made bbq chicken pizza. It was almost ruined because donnie's mom doesn't have a cheese grater. I've never met anyone who does not have a cheese grater. Donnie drove to sobeys, which was close, then zellers, closed, and shoppers which didn't sell any. So he came home empty handed and fuming. In the end we cut the cheese in really thing slices and placed them on the pizza. It didn't really melt right but it still tasted good.
Im dreading going back to school. I hate this class. Its too much talking for me. We have a lot of useless homework. Like looking up definitions, and grammar sheets. Plus we have 3 oral presentations. OUCH. I hate public speaking. HATE IT. And the teacher checks our homework and makes us go around the room an answer out loud all the questions. I feel like I am back in elementary school not college. I feel so anxious in this class. I dread going.
Tomorow is a holiday! I finally get to sleep in!! Yippee!!! I hope its sunny. And I hope we do something really fun!!!
19 more days until I see KANYE!!!
I worked all weekend, which actually went by sort of quickly. But today my body feels real stiff and my bones keep cracking. I feel like an old lady. It was fairly busy at work, yet still boring. Back to school brings out everyone.
Last night I had a sleep over at Donnies. We made bbq chicken pizza. It was almost ruined because donnie's mom doesn't have a cheese grater. I've never met anyone who does not have a cheese grater. Donnie drove to sobeys, which was close, then zellers, closed, and shoppers which didn't sell any. So he came home empty handed and fuming. In the end we cut the cheese in really thing slices and placed them on the pizza. It didn't really melt right but it still tasted good.
Im dreading going back to school. I hate this class. Its too much talking for me. We have a lot of useless homework. Like looking up definitions, and grammar sheets. Plus we have 3 oral presentations. OUCH. I hate public speaking. HATE IT. And the teacher checks our homework and makes us go around the room an answer out loud all the questions. I feel like I am back in elementary school not college. I feel so anxious in this class. I dread going.
Tomorow is a holiday! I finally get to sleep in!! Yippee!!! I hope its sunny. And I hope we do something really fun!!!
19 more days until I see KANYE!!!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
The life of a Butterfly
Yesterday was mine and Donnie's 6 month anniversary. I feels a lot longer than that. I feels like it has been years rather then months. Things are wonderfully great! Donnie bought use Rolling stones concert tickets for my anniversary present. I haven't bought Donnie's present yet, I have been broke, my loan should be here anyday, if not I get paid on Thursday. Donnie has changed his mind every week about what he wants. First it was some tool, then an airbrush, many things for his car. I wonder what he will want next week.
My school year is wrapping up. I have like 2 months left, with is exciting. I've been so frustrated. But I got great news for the career service girls. I have been referred and my resume has been sent to a really swanky Law Firm. To be an advertising assistant. Just to be chosen out of all my class to ahve the chance to work there, is awesome. It will look so great on my resume. It just a placement for 2 months. But I would get paid, monday to friday 9-5. I am so excited. Hopefully I'll get it.
We didn't do much last night, were both broke. We played tennis. But I got snappy, because Donnies been playing Tennis in Halifax when hes down there for work. He thinks hes like really good now. So he makes me feel stupid. Telling me to hit the ball this way, hold my racket this way, stand farther back in the box. I didn't think I was that bad. Im really good at serving. I would say Im decent. But he made me feel like I sucked. So after a while I got cranky and started smashing the balls over the fence lol. He didn't like that much. So the game ended. We played for about an hour.
The rest of the night we just chilled. We went to the mall, to my work to get a baby outfit for my Cousin, he shower is on Sunday. And we just looked around. Then we came home and watch a Alfie. It was pretty good.
Anyways work time.
My school year is wrapping up. I have like 2 months left, with is exciting. I've been so frustrated. But I got great news for the career service girls. I have been referred and my resume has been sent to a really swanky Law Firm. To be an advertising assistant. Just to be chosen out of all my class to ahve the chance to work there, is awesome. It will look so great on my resume. It just a placement for 2 months. But I would get paid, monday to friday 9-5. I am so excited. Hopefully I'll get it.
We didn't do much last night, were both broke. We played tennis. But I got snappy, because Donnies been playing Tennis in Halifax when hes down there for work. He thinks hes like really good now. So he makes me feel stupid. Telling me to hit the ball this way, hold my racket this way, stand farther back in the box. I didn't think I was that bad. Im really good at serving. I would say Im decent. But he made me feel like I sucked. So after a while I got cranky and started smashing the balls over the fence lol. He didn't like that much. So the game ended. We played for about an hour.
The rest of the night we just chilled. We went to the mall, to my work to get a baby outfit for my Cousin, he shower is on Sunday. And we just looked around. Then we came home and watch a Alfie. It was pretty good.
Anyways work time.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
One day down, a million more to go!
Rolling Stone here we come. Donnie and I went to Halifax yesterday to pick up Rolling stone tickets. I enjoy there music and think they will put on a great show, but the real reason I am going is to see Kanye West. He is one of the opening acts. Ive always wanted to see him in Concert. Him and Mariah Carey are my number ones!!!
We spent the day in Halifax and it was perfect! Just the mini getaway that I needed. It was a beautiful day and we both looked hot! lol. We got a free meal at Maxwell's Plum with our tickets. And we went shopping. We both bought a couple shirts and Donnie got some new kicks. Its so hard for him to find sneakers cuz he takes a size 13!!
I met Donnies great aunt. Were staying at her place when we go back down next month for the concert. Very nice lady, but omg she has huge Knockers!!
We also got to watch the buskers down on the water front. They come every year. And I always wanted to go. Its a group of street people who perform all day for like a week. And its free. We watched crazy hulahoop girls. A man get out of a straight jacket. A man balance on a 12 foot pole and juggle knifes. And break dancers. There was soo much more, but we got hungry! So we walked around for like an hour trying to decide on a restaurant. In the end we tried Applebees. I order a stir fry, it started off good. Look fabulous. But then I tasted the sauce, it was pukrid!! It was like spicy orange. But it tasted like orange peels with pepper and hot stuff lol. It made me sick to my stomach. But I had chocolate cake with boiled icing, that cheered me up.
Oh yea when we were on the waterfront. I get a henna tattoo. It was 5 bucks, and now I know why it was soo cheap. It was suppose to be this weird butterfly design, it was cute. But no it looks like someone drew it on with a permant marker and it looks like a weird lobster!!! I hate. I got it on my wrist. I should of just bought the stuff to do it yourself, that was donnie's idea, but I didn't listen!!!
Donnie made the day so perfect for me, he paid for everything, he was a great tour guide, and he did everything I wanted. And he catered to me all day. He was amazing, and Im even more in love with him now.
He completely made my summer, just with that one day.!
We spent the day in Halifax and it was perfect! Just the mini getaway that I needed. It was a beautiful day and we both looked hot! lol. We got a free meal at Maxwell's Plum with our tickets. And we went shopping. We both bought a couple shirts and Donnie got some new kicks. Its so hard for him to find sneakers cuz he takes a size 13!!
I met Donnies great aunt. Were staying at her place when we go back down next month for the concert. Very nice lady, but omg she has huge Knockers!!
We also got to watch the buskers down on the water front. They come every year. And I always wanted to go. Its a group of street people who perform all day for like a week. And its free. We watched crazy hulahoop girls. A man get out of a straight jacket. A man balance on a 12 foot pole and juggle knifes. And break dancers. There was soo much more, but we got hungry! So we walked around for like an hour trying to decide on a restaurant. In the end we tried Applebees. I order a stir fry, it started off good. Look fabulous. But then I tasted the sauce, it was pukrid!! It was like spicy orange. But it tasted like orange peels with pepper and hot stuff lol. It made me sick to my stomach. But I had chocolate cake with boiled icing, that cheered me up.
Oh yea when we were on the waterfront. I get a henna tattoo. It was 5 bucks, and now I know why it was soo cheap. It was suppose to be this weird butterfly design, it was cute. But no it looks like someone drew it on with a permant marker and it looks like a weird lobster!!! I hate. I got it on my wrist. I should of just bought the stuff to do it yourself, that was donnie's idea, but I didn't listen!!!
Donnie made the day so perfect for me, he paid for everything, he was a great tour guide, and he did everything I wanted. And he catered to me all day. He was amazing, and Im even more in love with him now.
He completely made my summer, just with that one day.!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Somethings Gotta Give!!!!
Maybe I was not meant to be happy, and to live a fun and exciting life. God has kicked me in the butt this summer. I have actually done NOTHING. The one summery thing I have done is gone to the beach and we didn't even sim because there were too many jelly fish.
We had plans to go to the drive in this weekend. Each weekend for the past 4 or 5 weekends we planned to go and something always got in our way. This weekend I was sure we were going. But I was on call and OF COURSE they needed me. Canceled! We planned to go camping. We didn't go because it rained all weekend. We wanted to go to PEI, couldn't get the time off. Anything we planned was ruined because we had no money, the weather sucked or I couldn't get the time off.
I am soo depressed. My summer sucks. My life sucks. I hate school. And I wish I could love it. I wish I could be dedicated and love waking up to go to school. But no half of the days I can't get my butt out of bed. I hate my work. Its depressing and boring. And Im always on call, waiting around , wasting my day, waiting to see if they need me to work. I can never get time off to do ANYTHING. I never have money. Never. Donnies always in Halifax when I need him, or somethings going on. I don't even have friends anymore, everyone has seemed to have found there path and ran away.
I feel like my summer consisted of renting movies and making pizzas. We did do a lot of walking. The only place I went this summer was amhesrt, 45 mins away. For a funeral. Party!
Honestly I am down in the dumps. And I have been for a while. The only good thing in my life is my family and Donnie. And I am lashing out on him and pushing him away. I guess its how I deal. Which obviously isn't right. But hes been incredible. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.
We had plans to go to the drive in this weekend. Each weekend for the past 4 or 5 weekends we planned to go and something always got in our way. This weekend I was sure we were going. But I was on call and OF COURSE they needed me. Canceled! We planned to go camping. We didn't go because it rained all weekend. We wanted to go to PEI, couldn't get the time off. Anything we planned was ruined because we had no money, the weather sucked or I couldn't get the time off.
I am soo depressed. My summer sucks. My life sucks. I hate school. And I wish I could love it. I wish I could be dedicated and love waking up to go to school. But no half of the days I can't get my butt out of bed. I hate my work. Its depressing and boring. And Im always on call, waiting around , wasting my day, waiting to see if they need me to work. I can never get time off to do ANYTHING. I never have money. Never. Donnies always in Halifax when I need him, or somethings going on. I don't even have friends anymore, everyone has seemed to have found there path and ran away.
I feel like my summer consisted of renting movies and making pizzas. We did do a lot of walking. The only place I went this summer was amhesrt, 45 mins away. For a funeral. Party!
Honestly I am down in the dumps. And I have been for a while. The only good thing in my life is my family and Donnie. And I am lashing out on him and pushing him away. I guess its how I deal. Which obviously isn't right. But hes been incredible. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
....simple
Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.
Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.
Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.
Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.
Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!
Monday, July 31, 2006
Congrats Jessika!!
Girls and two boys
Me and My Dad
Baby Jacob
Josh Jacob and Cherie
Me and GillianThe weekend has past, and it was a long one. No Donnie and a long working weekend.
Jessika's grad party was great. More people showed up then I expected. I was surprised to see my cousin Cherie who's pregnant. I have not see her in a while, it was it was nice, and seeing her big belly was crazy. Its still crazy to think she will be a mother in 2 months. It made me happy to see all my family. We all got along great. Here are some pictures.
Donnie will be home in roughly 24 hours. Can't wait. Literaly!!!!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
i can't even feel the summer breeze
Donnie called me yesterday morning to inform me that his shifts change this week so he will be inHalifax until tuesday. Which means we will be apart for 8 days. Which is depressing to think about, I really miss him this week. I have been sick with the flu and just more moody than usual and catherine gone all week to visit a friend in Bathurst. So, Im a lonely girl.
My sisters grad party is this sunday, and I am of course disappointed that Donnie won't be there. He hasn't met many of my extended family, and I really wanted him too. Im not sure how many people will come, because no one likes to come to Moncton. We always have to go to them. Im not sure if Im going to pick jessika up something, I already gave her a gift. I think thats enough. And not to sound selfish, but she never bought me a grad present. I have a feeling I am going to have to work. Hopefully it will just be a short shift.
I need to get away soon. I haven't been anywheres this summer and it driving me crazy. It doesn't even feel like summer, working and school. And never having any money to do anything. I hate it. Its a terrible summer. And its almost over, it feels like it just begun. Argh
Im so bored I guess I will go put a movie on and wait for Donnie to give me a call. Not that I have anything interesting to say to him. I just love to hear his voice.
ciao
My sisters grad party is this sunday, and I am of course disappointed that Donnie won't be there. He hasn't met many of my extended family, and I really wanted him too. Im not sure how many people will come, because no one likes to come to Moncton. We always have to go to them. Im not sure if Im going to pick jessika up something, I already gave her a gift. I think thats enough. And not to sound selfish, but she never bought me a grad present. I have a feeling I am going to have to work. Hopefully it will just be a short shift.
I need to get away soon. I haven't been anywheres this summer and it driving me crazy. It doesn't even feel like summer, working and school. And never having any money to do anything. I hate it. Its a terrible summer. And its almost over, it feels like it just begun. Argh
Im so bored I guess I will go put a movie on and wait for Donnie to give me a call. Not that I have anything interesting to say to him. I just love to hear his voice.
ciao
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Monday, July 17, 2006
beeeeach
We went to the beach. By we I mean me, cat, donnie and his sister jerrica. It was a blast. It was a great day to go, super hot. We played catch and tried to swim but there were too many jelly fish. Catherine atemped to build a sand castle. She bought some buckets and shovels, but it was soo packed on the beach.
I was glas to hang out with more people than just me and Donnie. Cat always feels like she would be the third wheel with me and donnie, so she never hangs out with us when I invite her. She completely wrong, I spend more time talking to her than donnie. He was the one left out today somewhat. It never bothered me to hang out with my friends and there bf's. We always had fun. I hope that she'll get over that and hang out with us more. I want her to become friends with Donnie.
Of course... some pictures.
I was glas to hang out with more people than just me and Donnie. Cat always feels like she would be the third wheel with me and donnie, so she never hangs out with us when I invite her. She completely wrong, I spend more time talking to her than donnie. He was the one left out today somewhat. It never bothered me to hang out with my friends and there bf's. We always had fun. I hope that she'll get over that and hang out with us more. I want her to become friends with Donnie.
Of course... some pictures.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
just alittle somethin somethin.......
I do not think I am better than anyone,honestly, and I don't hate people. I just hate things that people do and most importantly don't do. Tell me why don't people bath, or shower, or get a sponge bath. Whatever your preference just do it. And why wear tube socks with shorts. You can buy ankle socks that tuck right in your shoes. If your too cheap, heres an idea. Cut your socks so that they are at your ankles. And they hide in your sneakers. And please no sandals and socks.
Another thing why do people feel the need to talk so loud and tell jokes to everyone on the bus? Not everyone thinks your funny. Please do not bring you 50 pages of jokes printed off on the computer and read it to the whole bus. I keep my voice quiet and respectful, atleast most of the time, why can't others.
I hate stinky people. Deordorant! I can't stress that enough.
Ok so I have nothing else interesting to talk about. Oh one thing, Donnie and I went to the Barnyard barbecue the other night. And it was fabulous. I tried cornbread for the first time. To me it tasted like bran muffins but they have this flavored butter and it was delicious. And I also tried sweet potato fries. Another good choice. The outside was crispy and the inside soft and moist. And sweet. Oh, my, Im craving them now.
Another thing why do people feel the need to talk so loud and tell jokes to everyone on the bus? Not everyone thinks your funny. Please do not bring you 50 pages of jokes printed off on the computer and read it to the whole bus. I keep my voice quiet and respectful, atleast most of the time, why can't others.
I hate stinky people. Deordorant! I can't stress that enough.
Ok so I have nothing else interesting to talk about. Oh one thing, Donnie and I went to the Barnyard barbecue the other night. And it was fabulous. I tried cornbread for the first time. To me it tasted like bran muffins but they have this flavored butter and it was delicious. And I also tried sweet potato fries. Another good choice. The outside was crispy and the inside soft and moist. And sweet. Oh, my, Im craving them now.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Money; hard to earn, easy to spend!!
I've been shopping all night. And it feels wonderful. I haven't had a real good shopping spree in months, so when my loan arrived I went crazy. Maybe alittle too crazy. But don't I always?
Donnies run into alittle bit of trouble and Im worried about him. His car broke down in halifax, so he needs money to buy a part and he needs to fix it. Of course I came to his rescue and let him money for the part. I'm glad I can help him. But hes just soo stressed out, he had a rough day at work and hes soo over tired. Seems like everything that could go wrong did.
I wish I could cheer him up. I can't wait to see him on friday. I bought him two new shirts, and I know hes going to look handsome in them.
I hit my lower back on a door knob and I am in alot of pain. I feel like I bruised it right down the bone. Ouch. The bruise is soo tiny but it hurts like a mo'fo!!!
Anyways back to my clothing spree. I bought really sexy wedges. I bought two pairs of dressy slong shorts, ones brown the other beige tweed. There styling. I got them at WAL MART too. I bought some cute graphic tees, one with curious george, one with a big pepsi logo ( I don't even drink pop but it looks cool.) I bought a few cute dressy tops, A 4 tank tops, a jean skirt. A white flowy shirt, and a work top. I really wanted a new purse but I couldn't find one I liked. And I need a new school bag, I will have to keep looking.
I was going to paint my room this weekend. But now my cash flow is alittle low. I might wait for my pay in a week. Or my GST check. I love money.. and I love shopping.
Bed time.
Donnies run into alittle bit of trouble and Im worried about him. His car broke down in halifax, so he needs money to buy a part and he needs to fix it. Of course I came to his rescue and let him money for the part. I'm glad I can help him. But hes just soo stressed out, he had a rough day at work and hes soo over tired. Seems like everything that could go wrong did.
I wish I could cheer him up. I can't wait to see him on friday. I bought him two new shirts, and I know hes going to look handsome in them.
I hit my lower back on a door knob and I am in alot of pain. I feel like I bruised it right down the bone. Ouch. The bruise is soo tiny but it hurts like a mo'fo!!!
Anyways back to my clothing spree. I bought really sexy wedges. I bought two pairs of dressy slong shorts, ones brown the other beige tweed. There styling. I got them at WAL MART too. I bought some cute graphic tees, one with curious george, one with a big pepsi logo ( I don't even drink pop but it looks cool.) I bought a few cute dressy tops, A 4 tank tops, a jean skirt. A white flowy shirt, and a work top. I really wanted a new purse but I couldn't find one I liked. And I need a new school bag, I will have to keep looking.
I was going to paint my room this weekend. But now my cash flow is alittle low. I might wait for my pay in a week. Or my GST check. I love money.. and I love shopping.
Bed time.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
if I don't answer Im pooooooooooping
Ive started my fasting/ laxatives for my colonosopy. First of all not eating for 32 hours is painful, especially in a house of 6. Everyones eating every second, something always smells good. Try watching t.v when your hungry, 80 percent of the commericals are for fast food, or some sort of food commerical. It drove me nuts.
Plus on top of that I had to drink two bottles of laxatives. They are Horrible, the fowlest taste ever in my mouth. I mixed it with apple juice last night and 7 up today. 7 up masks the taste better. The OMG the taste is puktrid. If that is even a word. It taste like metal, very saltly!! Almost taste like blood would smell, salty, thick. Gross. Its takes like 15 mins to drink it all.
Its now 2:46 am and I just finshed my second bottle and I am wide awake. My procedure is at 10:30. And I will be glad when its over. My mom says I will be waiting around alot. Argh its going to be along day. I don't want to be sleeping all day because its jessica's prom. I want to see them all done up.
I think I better try and sleep. Donnies in halifax until saturday. And I miss him soo much right now! I feel like crying!
Plus on top of that I had to drink two bottles of laxatives. They are Horrible, the fowlest taste ever in my mouth. I mixed it with apple juice last night and 7 up today. 7 up masks the taste better. The OMG the taste is puktrid. If that is even a word. It taste like metal, very saltly!! Almost taste like blood would smell, salty, thick. Gross. Its takes like 15 mins to drink it all.
Its now 2:46 am and I just finshed my second bottle and I am wide awake. My procedure is at 10:30. And I will be glad when its over. My mom says I will be waiting around alot. Argh its going to be along day. I don't want to be sleeping all day because its jessica's prom. I want to see them all done up.
I think I better try and sleep. Donnies in halifax until saturday. And I miss him soo much right now! I feel like crying!
Friday, June 16, 2006
Lover
I have such an incredible boyfriend, Ive been a little hard on him for not buying me stuff and spoiling me as much. But even if he doesn't spoil me with presents, just the way he treats me is enough. Some days I just get greedy!
He is the most caring, thoughtful, sympathic and understanding guy I have ever met. Oh my goodness you wouldn't and can't possibly understand how much I love him.
He wrote me a love letter today!!! It was sooo sweet!! Something to add to my box!!;)
Top 5 favorite things About Donnie
He is the most caring, thoughtful, sympathic and understanding guy I have ever met. Oh my goodness you wouldn't and can't possibly understand how much I love him.
He wrote me a love letter today!!! It was sooo sweet!! Something to add to my box!!;)
Top 5 favorite things About Donnie
- His eyes
- Deep voice
- his thoughtfulness
- his laugh
- hes patient
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Feeling Pink
I graduate on October 27!!!! Time has seriously flown by! I am excited to finish school and get out in the working world. My dream job to get with this diploma would be a secretary in a school. Or being an assistant of some big wig.
Not much is going on, I am beyond broke and feel seriously deprived. I can't remember the last time I went shopping. I am semi-patiently waiting for my loan. It comes in 2 weeks. Though, get this pretty much everyone else has already receive their loan. Im always the one waiting around.
Next week I am getting a colonosopy. I am excited. For the only reason that I would like to know whats wrong with me. Its kind of interesting to be able to see what my insides look like, my colon for that matter. I am just scared for the seditives. I don't like needles. Well no one does really.
This weekend was sooo much fun. Donnie and I kept ourselves busy in many ways. Friday night we went out to eat. Saturday we went double dating with his sister and her boyfriend bowling. Then we went to my house and watch "Last holiday". And Sunday we went to my oldest sisters apartment for a board game night. We played boggle, trivial pursuit the 90's versions and some card games. And Monday we went to the driving range. Which is one of my new addictions. And then we went for a nature walk and got caught in a down pour, so we cuddle under a shelter until it stop. It was soo romantic.
Time to watch Last Comic Standing!!! Go Josh Blue!
Not much is going on, I am beyond broke and feel seriously deprived. I can't remember the last time I went shopping. I am semi-patiently waiting for my loan. It comes in 2 weeks. Though, get this pretty much everyone else has already receive their loan. Im always the one waiting around.
Next week I am getting a colonosopy. I am excited. For the only reason that I would like to know whats wrong with me. Its kind of interesting to be able to see what my insides look like, my colon for that matter. I am just scared for the seditives. I don't like needles. Well no one does really.
This weekend was sooo much fun. Donnie and I kept ourselves busy in many ways. Friday night we went out to eat. Saturday we went double dating with his sister and her boyfriend bowling. Then we went to my house and watch "Last holiday". And Sunday we went to my oldest sisters apartment for a board game night. We played boggle, trivial pursuit the 90's versions and some card games. And Monday we went to the driving range. Which is one of my new addictions. And then we went for a nature walk and got caught in a down pour, so we cuddle under a shelter until it stop. It was soo romantic.
Time to watch Last Comic Standing!!! Go Josh Blue!
Saturday, June 10, 2006
La Zone!
Bowling. Haven't done that in years. It was really fun. Like simple fun, well not simple I was very competative. I like to win. I wanted to get a strike. But I failed. Three strings and I didn't get one strike. Donnie got one on his first try. Its alot hard with the small balls. Jerrica and her bf nathan came with me and Donnie. They are a cute couple and a lot of fun. Heres pictures. How could I not take pictures.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Sick again!!
Its been a while. Ive been sick. Like always. You'd think I don't take care of myself, for how may times I get sick in a year. This time its the stomach flu. Its weird Monday night Donnie and I went and played tennis. We were supurisingly fabolous for begginers, we played for about 30 mins and then I felt so sick to my stomach and the had worse headache. My whole body clentched up and my body was soo sore I couldn't even move.
3 days later and I haven't eaten a thing. Atcually I lie. I have eaten yogurt, 2 spoonfuls of cherios and 3 pieces of pineapple. And a bottle of poweraide. IN 3 DAYS. Im gonna go weight myself. Good way to shed some pounds. Unhealthily I might add too. But oh well.
Donnies now working in Halifax 3 days a week. Wednesday til Friday night. The first week was tough, I was really lonely, and felt lost. But its getting alittle easier. Im sure it will be normal pretty soon. Especially when he gets his first pay. We both have been excruciatingly broke for the past few months. Its such bummer. We haven't been to a movie or out to eat in ages. And I have not been shopping, which is stressful enough. I need some new clothes!
Schools well blah. Finished booking with a 90. I was sure I was going to fail, it was a really tough course for me, but in the end I enjoyed it and felt like I basically understood the stuff. I am now in Simply Accounting which suchs too. I don't feel like I know anything, becasue my teacher isn't teaching, hes just showing us how to do the stuff step by step. Im not sure if I will be able to do it on my own for the exam. Plus missing 3 days is not good. I know I miss alot of time. And40 percent of it is when im sick. But 60 percent is because its soo boring, and I hate it. I need to smarten up. Not gonna happen, I have probably already done my damage. Which means I have to find my ON THE JOB TRAINING, myself. I better start putting some thought into that.
I think I will try and go eat something. Wish me luck.
3 days later and I haven't eaten a thing. Atcually I lie. I have eaten yogurt, 2 spoonfuls of cherios and 3 pieces of pineapple. And a bottle of poweraide. IN 3 DAYS. Im gonna go weight myself. Good way to shed some pounds. Unhealthily I might add too. But oh well.
Donnies now working in Halifax 3 days a week. Wednesday til Friday night. The first week was tough, I was really lonely, and felt lost. But its getting alittle easier. Im sure it will be normal pretty soon. Especially when he gets his first pay. We both have been excruciatingly broke for the past few months. Its such bummer. We haven't been to a movie or out to eat in ages. And I have not been shopping, which is stressful enough. I need some new clothes!
Schools well blah. Finished booking with a 90. I was sure I was going to fail, it was a really tough course for me, but in the end I enjoyed it and felt like I basically understood the stuff. I am now in Simply Accounting which suchs too. I don't feel like I know anything, becasue my teacher isn't teaching, hes just showing us how to do the stuff step by step. Im not sure if I will be able to do it on my own for the exam. Plus missing 3 days is not good. I know I miss alot of time. And40 percent of it is when im sick. But 60 percent is because its soo boring, and I hate it. I need to smarten up. Not gonna happen, I have probably already done my damage. Which means I have to find my ON THE JOB TRAINING, myself. I better start putting some thought into that.
I think I will try and go eat something. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Wedding!
I slept in. So now I can't go to school. Usually I wouldn't mind, but I didn't want to miss any time in this class in fear that I will fail. We are taking bookkeeping and numbers confuse me. Numbers send me into a stay of confusion, I write then backwards and never know where to put them. Missing one day is going to be like missing a year for me. So I am going to have to read my text box, and call up cat to come save me and show me what my little brain isn't understanding.
Terris wedding was this weekend and it couldn't of been better weekend. It was a beautiful and exhausting weekend. Friday night was the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Let me tell you I was quivering in my flip flops. I was the first to walk down the isle and I was petrified. I couldn't walk slow enough, and I didn't know who too look at. I kept making these awkward faces. I found it hard to smile. The day of the wedding just flew by. The wedding itself was actually only 30 mins or so. It was beautiful. Terri and Jeff looked soo happy and they both looked fabulous!
On the other hand I look horrid. My hair was ugly. I was disappointed with it. I told the hairdresser a few things I didn't like and she pretend to fix it, but didn't actually, so I just gave up. I hate telling a stranger your not happy and it looks pretty. And my dress washed me out and made me look 20 pounds heavier.
The most wonderful thing about the wedding tho was Donnie came. I loved sitting up in the wedding party table and being able to look at him. He looked soo cute. And we slowed danced a few times. Im so glad he came.
Donnies gone away for 3 days to Halifax for some doctor appointments. So Im kind of lonely. I guess its time to call the girls up and catch up!
Terris wedding was this weekend and it couldn't of been better weekend. It was a beautiful and exhausting weekend. Friday night was the rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Let me tell you I was quivering in my flip flops. I was the first to walk down the isle and I was petrified. I couldn't walk slow enough, and I didn't know who too look at. I kept making these awkward faces. I found it hard to smile. The day of the wedding just flew by. The wedding itself was actually only 30 mins or so. It was beautiful. Terri and Jeff looked soo happy and they both looked fabulous!
On the other hand I look horrid. My hair was ugly. I was disappointed with it. I told the hairdresser a few things I didn't like and she pretend to fix it, but didn't actually, so I just gave up. I hate telling a stranger your not happy and it looks pretty. And my dress washed me out and made me look 20 pounds heavier.
The most wonderful thing about the wedding tho was Donnie came. I loved sitting up in the wedding party table and being able to look at him. He looked soo cute. And we slowed danced a few times. Im so glad he came.
Donnies gone away for 3 days to Halifax for some doctor appointments. So Im kind of lonely. I guess its time to call the girls up and catch up!
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
I hate spelling tests
My posts seems to be getting very sparse. I just don't have as much time as I used to..A boyfriend takes up a lot of time, and so does sleeping. My number one pass time.
Ive been sick for the past 2 weeks. Feeling really crappy. I went to the Doctors and I have to get some tests. Its mostly likely a stomach diease like Chrones. I'd just rather find out what I have and deal with it. And maybe fix it. I am just sick of being sick. I fear going out because I know I will have diarrhea, and my stomach is always bloated and my muscles are tightened and cramped.
Today was a good day. I felt semi good. Maybe because I didn't eat much. Its seems like eveything that touches my lips upsets my tummy.
I went to see "Friends with Money" with Jerrica and Kayla.I need some friends with money!! Lots of money, and they are generous and like to spend it on me lol. I really enjoyed the movie tho. It was funny and very believable. There was no set plot or story line. It just seemed like life. Real things that happen to people. I recommend it to everyone!
I have to go study 200 spelling words. I HATE SPELLING.
Ive been sick for the past 2 weeks. Feeling really crappy. I went to the Doctors and I have to get some tests. Its mostly likely a stomach diease like Chrones. I'd just rather find out what I have and deal with it. And maybe fix it. I am just sick of being sick. I fear going out because I know I will have diarrhea, and my stomach is always bloated and my muscles are tightened and cramped.
Today was a good day. I felt semi good. Maybe because I didn't eat much. Its seems like eveything that touches my lips upsets my tummy.
I went to see "Friends with Money" with Jerrica and Kayla.I need some friends with money!! Lots of money, and they are generous and like to spend it on me lol. I really enjoyed the movie tho. It was funny and very believable. There was no set plot or story line. It just seemed like life. Real things that happen to people. I recommend it to everyone!
I have to go study 200 spelling words. I HATE SPELLING.
Monday, April 24, 2006
He seduced me.
I try not to compare this relationship with my old one, but I ocasionally tend to do that. Actually I do it a lot. There are of course good and bad things, but I am trying to focus on the good things. I will admit I am not falling as fast for Donnie as I had for Mark. But whose to say that's a bad thing. With Donnie I feel like things are running smoothly, my feelings for him are flourishing at a calming pace for me. And for once I am relaxed in this relationship. I may of loved Mark more than anything in this world, but I was always walking on egg shells. I was filled with anxiety.
Donnie makes me feel secure with everything around me and I don't worry that tomorrow he will be mad with me, or he will see another girl he likes, or hes online chatting with girls. I trust him 100 percent and my mind isn't even occupying those bad thoughts.
We are complete opposites, hes everything Im not. Hes shy, caring, giving, quiet, always thinking about others and always trying to please me. I on the other hand am selfish, loud, sarcastic, bossy and outgoing. I tell it how I see it and sometimes drill it into your head until you want to beat me. But I try to be a better person because of him. I see the way he treats me, which is even at all times. Hee hasn't lost his cool, or got mad at me. Hes always kind and caring. And always gives me what I want.
I am happy with this relationship. I think I might keep him around for a while.
Donnie makes me feel secure with everything around me and I don't worry that tomorrow he will be mad with me, or he will see another girl he likes, or hes online chatting with girls. I trust him 100 percent and my mind isn't even occupying those bad thoughts.
We are complete opposites, hes everything Im not. Hes shy, caring, giving, quiet, always thinking about others and always trying to please me. I on the other hand am selfish, loud, sarcastic, bossy and outgoing. I tell it how I see it and sometimes drill it into your head until you want to beat me. But I try to be a better person because of him. I see the way he treats me, which is even at all times. Hee hasn't lost his cool, or got mad at me. Hes always kind and caring. And always gives me what I want.
I am happy with this relationship. I think I might keep him around for a while.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Its all in my eyes!
I just finished a week off from school, and I was busy everyday. It just flew by. Ive been working a lot, well a lot more than I am used to. And my body's exhausted. I skipped school today because I couldn't even keep my eyes open. Right now I am actually thinking about going back to bed until I work tonight at 6.
I have been planning out the Bachelorette party which is Saturday. I have spent so much money. I am getting bitter about this party because the other bridesmaid, hasn't really brought anything, and hasn't been helping to plan it. I am in the midst of making Penis nametags. But I am not sure if they really look like penises. I used peach colored felt and brown pompoms. There kind of cute, they will be attached to the girls shirts with cloth pins. I also made Terri's veil thingy to wear all night. Its made it with a Tiara and white material and I dyed the material pink at the bottom. Ive been wearing it aorund the house!!!
I haven't seen Donnie since Friday, Im either working or at school or sleeping. But I think its sort of a good thing, because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed with him. I don't want to be in that relationship where you spend every day together and do every little thing together. I had that before and it didn't turn out so well. I want to be in a relationship when its cool to hang out with our separate friends, and its ok to go a few days with out seeing each other. I want to be able to hang out with a group of our friends, not just me and him. But he doesn't have any friends up here, so its a drag. Sometimes I feel guilty because I go hang out with my friends, he just stays home, and does whatever he does.
Being in a relationship is bringing out a lot of emotions I don't like feeling. It has its good side of course too.
You know what I want, I want a vacation. A real one. Do you remember when you were a kid and nothing ABSOLUTELY nothing matter. Time was the last thing on our minds. I want that feeling back. I want to run around, do whatever I want and not have to worry that at 6 p.m. I have to work and the next morning I have school. I guess that is a big part of being an adult. You have a schedule, that you must follow or there are consequences. Wouldn't it be great to hop on a plane and go to a tropical place, and the only things on your schedule are tanning, swimming and eating. Not a worry in those big blue skies would be for me. That would be fantasic. Im gonna to back to bed and dream about that.
I have been planning out the Bachelorette party which is Saturday. I have spent so much money. I am getting bitter about this party because the other bridesmaid, hasn't really brought anything, and hasn't been helping to plan it. I am in the midst of making Penis nametags. But I am not sure if they really look like penises. I used peach colored felt and brown pompoms. There kind of cute, they will be attached to the girls shirts with cloth pins. I also made Terri's veil thingy to wear all night. Its made it with a Tiara and white material and I dyed the material pink at the bottom. Ive been wearing it aorund the house!!!
I haven't seen Donnie since Friday, Im either working or at school or sleeping. But I think its sort of a good thing, because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed with him. I don't want to be in that relationship where you spend every day together and do every little thing together. I had that before and it didn't turn out so well. I want to be in a relationship when its cool to hang out with our separate friends, and its ok to go a few days with out seeing each other. I want to be able to hang out with a group of our friends, not just me and him. But he doesn't have any friends up here, so its a drag. Sometimes I feel guilty because I go hang out with my friends, he just stays home, and does whatever he does.
Being in a relationship is bringing out a lot of emotions I don't like feeling. It has its good side of course too.
You know what I want, I want a vacation. A real one. Do you remember when you were a kid and nothing ABSOLUTELY nothing matter. Time was the last thing on our minds. I want that feeling back. I want to run around, do whatever I want and not have to worry that at 6 p.m. I have to work and the next morning I have school. I guess that is a big part of being an adult. You have a schedule, that you must follow or there are consequences. Wouldn't it be great to hop on a plane and go to a tropical place, and the only things on your schedule are tanning, swimming and eating. Not a worry in those big blue skies would be for me. That would be fantasic. Im gonna to back to bed and dream about that.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Running out of time
I have a bacherlette party to plan, which is in like 10 days. Well its not just me, but the other bridesmaid, which i have been emailing and trying to get together to plan this out, but we haven't. Im alittle ticked off, because nothing I MEAN nothing is planned. I don't even have many ideas?!!!And little money! Im stressing. Any ideas?????? HELP I know we are going to someone's place, party talk...games? Then to the clubs.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Ms.Crabs.
I adore my new phone, its soo pimpin'! I feel so high tech and cool holding it. And I am constantly listening to music on it. I love it I love it I love it.
SPRING IS HERE. It was so beautiful today, and its suppose to be even nicer tomorrow. I think I shall wear one of my new skirts. Im gonna look soo purrty.
Ok Ok.. you know how I hate to talk about people. Gossiping is a horrible habit mine. But get this, it needs to be said. Theres a girl in my class we will call her "PAM". Pam is always scratching herself. First of all her hygiene is not all that clean, but she's the nicest girl.He hair is usually greasy and short so it has like all these cow licks. I catch scratching her crotch, not just scratching but digging at her crotch. And shes always wearing splash pants so it this annoying sound. It makes me gag. She MUST have grabs or something. And she needs to get it fixed. I can't stand looking at her digging anymore. Im gonna up chuck my mars bar.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Falling like a Shooting Star
I attended a baby shower for my friend last Saturday. Which was wonderful. It was cheerful, but a tad boring. She took 2 hours to open presents.I was ready to just run up and rip them all open. Who saves wrapping paper?
Terri's wedding shower is this Saturday. I was baffled as to what to get for a wedding shower gift. I've never been to one. In the end I looked at her registries and picked out a white turkey platter and a turkey baster. The baster actually has a brown turkey as the holder thingy. Its rather cute. I want to buy a new outfit for the shower. I want to get dolled up, I mean my friends getting married, I must look mature and well put together. And its another excuse to go shopping!!
Schools a drag. I been missing quite a lot of days, which isn't good, because they could stop giving me my student loan. Im just getting sick of typing, I fall asleep. And all my friends are in the main building or in afternoons. I am soo lonely.
Tonight at work I had to get on my hands and knees with a putty scraper and scrap and dig gum, stickers and other gross food stuck to the floor. I think its time for a new job. This isn't retail, this is child labor.!!
Terri's wedding shower is this Saturday. I was baffled as to what to get for a wedding shower gift. I've never been to one. In the end I looked at her registries and picked out a white turkey platter and a turkey baster. The baster actually has a brown turkey as the holder thingy. Its rather cute. I want to buy a new outfit for the shower. I want to get dolled up, I mean my friends getting married, I must look mature and well put together. And its another excuse to go shopping!!
Schools a drag. I been missing quite a lot of days, which isn't good, because they could stop giving me my student loan. Im just getting sick of typing, I fall asleep. And all my friends are in the main building or in afternoons. I am soo lonely.
Tonight at work I had to get on my hands and knees with a putty scraper and scrap and dig gum, stickers and other gross food stuck to the floor. I think its time for a new job. This isn't retail, this is child labor.!!
Friday, March 17, 2006
Its all in his words.
In your intense eyes I see a fate, ones clear as the bluest sky on a warm summer day.
You laughter makes me laugh, even in one of my foulest moods.
Its like u carass me with your soft hands, and everything melts away, the chaotic thoughts in my mind subside if only for moments and the world around me fades away.
Your words always soft, gentle and kind, melt away the ice around my heart.
I fear for my own words, I fear I am pushing you away, but I let my mind run and it is hard to catch.
But you save me with your speech, your dedication and your sweet sweetness.
I was never good at being completely real with my heart, I can belt, rant and rave about any other subject, but when it comes to the sweet music from my heart I shy away.
You are breaking through and you are opening me up. In a matter of time my heart will exposed for all your love.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
blah blah blah
Ive been shopping for the past week. I got my student loan and my income tax. I am now waiting to get the new Sony cell phone. They were out the last time I was at Rogers. I hope they have some tomorow!!!Im excited.
Things are going great with Donnie and I. Weve been hanging out alot.
better post soon!!
Monday, March 13, 2006
Thursday, March 09, 2006
alittle magic at the mall
I stayed home from school. I can't bare to type reports anymore. School is turning into a headache for me. I have a week off at the first of April. I racing through my calander!
We went shopping today! We spend hour there. No complaints. He didn't drag his feet, he didn't whine, he was a pleasure.
What a suprise.I bought a few tops, some new make up and a movie.
Oh and I bought a frame. He drew me a picture of a rose the other day, I wanted to frame it. It is beautiful.
We ate supper at Don Cherry's in the mall, his treat of course. This time I tried to pay. He wouldn't let me.
We went shopping today! We spend hour there. No complaints. He didn't drag his feet, he didn't whine, he was a pleasure.
What a suprise.I bought a few tops, some new make up and a movie.
Oh and I bought a frame. He drew me a picture of a rose the other day, I wanted to frame it. It is beautiful.
We ate supper at Don Cherry's in the mall, his treat of course. This time I tried to pay. He wouldn't let me.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Times a Changin'!
Im feeling alitte dominating in this relationship. Donnie leaves everything up to me. He's overly laid back, but not just laid back, he wants me to like and enjoy everything. So I chose everything, I control everything and I do no wrong. I suppose this is all new and soon it will change.
The only things I can find bad about him are actually good things, that are sort of annoying in my mixed up brain. WeÂ’ve hung out all weekend. Very relaxed, and low key. A lot of cuddling and kissing. We went to dinner a few times. And of course he pays. He treated me to a binge at the bulk barn, loading up on tons of candies. And he bought me a new book and the cosmo mag.
That was almost 30 dollars! Plus supper and a smoothie. A girls gonna be spoiled! I love it though.
Hes very into me, as I am likewise. I just think not at the same level. Im not scared, Ive just been out of the game for so long, that it feels funny to have someone clinging to me. Someone calling me and messaging me. It feels nice. I just have a lot of mixed reactions. I like my independence. And he wants to spend a lot of time together. I feel like I always have to check in.
Ok enough about this. Its new. Im happy, hes sweet and cute. That's all that matters. Im am trying not to stress myself out, over these silly things. I need time and lots of it. He will be more confident and comfortable in time. This will be WON-DER-FUL!!
The only things I can find bad about him are actually good things, that are sort of annoying in my mixed up brain. WeÂ’ve hung out all weekend. Very relaxed, and low key. A lot of cuddling and kissing. We went to dinner a few times. And of course he pays. He treated me to a binge at the bulk barn, loading up on tons of candies. And he bought me a new book and the cosmo mag.
That was almost 30 dollars! Plus supper and a smoothie. A girls gonna be spoiled! I love it though.
Hes very into me, as I am likewise. I just think not at the same level. Im not scared, Ive just been out of the game for so long, that it feels funny to have someone clinging to me. Someone calling me and messaging me. It feels nice. I just have a lot of mixed reactions. I like my independence. And he wants to spend a lot of time together. I feel like I always have to check in.
Ok enough about this. Its new. Im happy, hes sweet and cute. That's all that matters. Im am trying not to stress myself out, over these silly things. I need time and lots of it. He will be more confident and comfortable in time. This will be WON-DER-FUL!!
Monday, March 06, 2006
Date 2.
We've known each other for a week, but I feel more comfortable with him then I have with anyone else I've been with. We've been talking about it, saying how it just feels strange. But a good strange. Theres some connection.
I sense I am probing for negative things in him, I think its a naturual reaction for me. Boy likes me,I get scarred. And now I like boy which makes me even more scarred. Its not that Im scared, its just I don't know what to do. Ive lost control of my thoughts, of my emotions. And I think I just wanted to make a bigger deal, make problems that aren't there. Don't ask me why.
Date 2- We went to an early dinner.
Then we walked around the mall, just looking at things. He wanted me to look at clothes, but I really don't believe he wanted to, what guy wants to follow a girl around while she's shopping. I declined.
Then we took the bus downtown, we were going to play pool, but we decided to stay on the bus, for the full bus ride. He's not from here, so we thought it would be cool to jump on some bus and just wander around. And thats what we did a 2 hours. It was cute, and sort of romantic. We were able to talk and cuddle. We talked about everything! We joked and laughed. Our first kiss was on the bus, we stopped at an old persons home, and the bus driver stepped off to run to the store next door. We were alone. I knew it was going to happen. You can just tell, when you eyes stare for a little longer each time. I lick you lips or smile, hoping to draw attention to them. I leaned forward and kissed him. It was sweet, 3 medium length kisses. No we did not make out on the bus. But the rest of the way home, we would randomly kiss here and there.
After our bus ride we walked down the street holding hands, and played pool for like 30 mins. I ve got bored. I wasn't really wearing the right outfit for pool. My jeans were low, and I was scared I would be flashing everyone my thong. I was consistly yanking them up and pullin my shirt down.
We decided to go back to my house, we jumped in a cab. And watched a movie upstairs. He met Jessika, my middle sister, who was the only one home. She thinks he's cute. She never thinks any of the guys I like are cute. She stayed out with us for a bit and talked. He was alittle quiet.
The night eneded with a kiss.Actually a few kisses!
I sense I am probing for negative things in him, I think its a naturual reaction for me. Boy likes me,I get scarred. And now I like boy which makes me even more scarred. Its not that Im scared, its just I don't know what to do. Ive lost control of my thoughts, of my emotions. And I think I just wanted to make a bigger deal, make problems that aren't there. Don't ask me why.
Date 2- We went to an early dinner.
Then we walked around the mall, just looking at things. He wanted me to look at clothes, but I really don't believe he wanted to, what guy wants to follow a girl around while she's shopping. I declined.
Then we took the bus downtown, we were going to play pool, but we decided to stay on the bus, for the full bus ride. He's not from here, so we thought it would be cool to jump on some bus and just wander around. And thats what we did a 2 hours. It was cute, and sort of romantic. We were able to talk and cuddle. We talked about everything! We joked and laughed. Our first kiss was on the bus, we stopped at an old persons home, and the bus driver stepped off to run to the store next door. We were alone. I knew it was going to happen. You can just tell, when you eyes stare for a little longer each time. I lick you lips or smile, hoping to draw attention to them. I leaned forward and kissed him. It was sweet, 3 medium length kisses. No we did not make out on the bus. But the rest of the way home, we would randomly kiss here and there.
After our bus ride we walked down the street holding hands, and played pool for like 30 mins. I ve got bored. I wasn't really wearing the right outfit for pool. My jeans were low, and I was scared I would be flashing everyone my thong. I was consistly yanking them up and pullin my shirt down.
We decided to go back to my house, we jumped in a cab. And watched a movie upstairs. He met Jessika, my middle sister, who was the only one home. She thinks he's cute. She never thinks any of the guys I like are cute. She stayed out with us for a bit and talked. He was alittle quiet.
The night eneded with a kiss.Actually a few kisses!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Alittle late with this post.
I have a few hours before the 2nd date. I'm feeling a mixture, both negative and positive. Everyones been telling me to stop over thinking. But thats me. Amanda The-Over-Thinker. I am less frantic as I have been in on other dates. I keep getting chills when I think of him, or what he is in mind, because he's sort of made up. Things I don't know about him, the way he acts, the way he talks, is all made up in my head. But I keep thinking of him placing his hand on my knee. It was soo suttle, but meant more than anything that night. It was a pure touch. It wasn't a touch of I want sex. Im horny. It was his way of showing me he liked me.
From talking to him online, he seems too nice. He seems too positive. And you would say theres nothing wrong with that, its better than being mean and negative, But too much of something is never good. He s trying to hard. But isn't that what people do on a date. Try to impress each other. I just don't want to be on a date with someone who is fake. I don't want to have to wait 2 months to see the real him. The cranky, spoiled boy. Yes i suspose you need to feel comfortable to be able to be yourself, and it is the only second date. But I want real, no games, straight forward.
Yes I am going on about nothing. I may be the one to sabotog this relationship before it blooms. But isn't that what I always do? I rumble about mindless problems, things I hate, things that bug me. I swear this time, I will give him a fair chance. A chance that consists of more than 2 dates. I am open and ready for this. I just need to be more open, less permant. Its a hard thing for me to change. Its hard for me to accept people, people who are in line to be my boyfriends. Im scared. I always admit that. And I don't want to waste my time.
But hes going to be different, i can feel it. Its this warm feeling in my belly. Its the sparkle in my eye. Hes nothing like Mark. I don't want to compair the two first dates. But, just their characters are differen't, their personalities, the way they carry themselves. Mark was all for show, loud, cocky, confident and all joking. Donnie seems reserved, gentle, sweet and a mommas boy.
A mixture of both would be great. But whos to know Donnie might have all those traits, or I might be wrong about everything. His sister is loud, and funny, he shouldn't be far from her. But then again, they may be total opposites.
From talking to him online, he seems too nice. He seems too positive. And you would say theres nothing wrong with that, its better than being mean and negative, But too much of something is never good. He s trying to hard. But isn't that what people do on a date. Try to impress each other. I just don't want to be on a date with someone who is fake. I don't want to have to wait 2 months to see the real him. The cranky, spoiled boy. Yes i suspose you need to feel comfortable to be able to be yourself, and it is the only second date. But I want real, no games, straight forward.
Yes I am going on about nothing. I may be the one to sabotog this relationship before it blooms. But isn't that what I always do? I rumble about mindless problems, things I hate, things that bug me. I swear this time, I will give him a fair chance. A chance that consists of more than 2 dates. I am open and ready for this. I just need to be more open, less permant. Its a hard thing for me to change. Its hard for me to accept people, people who are in line to be my boyfriends. Im scared. I always admit that. And I don't want to waste my time.
But hes going to be different, i can feel it. Its this warm feeling in my belly. Its the sparkle in my eye. Hes nothing like Mark. I don't want to compair the two first dates. But, just their characters are differen't, their personalities, the way they carry themselves. Mark was all for show, loud, cocky, confident and all joking. Donnie seems reserved, gentle, sweet and a mommas boy.
A mixture of both would be great. But whos to know Donnie might have all those traits, or I might be wrong about everything. His sister is loud, and funny, he shouldn't be far from her. But then again, they may be total opposites.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Smiling arces
2nd date on friday. And I am completely estactic. I can't even think straight. Im soo pumped. I think i better go out for a jog. He sent me the sweetest email. I couldn't stop smiling. Whats gotten into me?
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