Tuesday, October 11, 2005

its just a phase.

Do I owe anyone any favors? No. Your girlfriends flat chested and shes doesn't like sex. She won't go down on you. What makes you think you can run to me to forfill your needs? Get a new girlfriend, or live with the one you have. Either way don't look at me to help you out.

I have seen first hand what guy's are like and Im scared to get a boyfriend. They are Basically all the same. [note there are a few exceptions.] They will stray if given the perfect chance.They will fool around and pretend like it was innocent. Tempt them and they will be tempted. So what am I wishing for? What am I begging for? Another reason to cry. A chance for someone to replace me. Guys are always looking. Its like testing driving an expensive car. They can't afford the car, but they will keep test driving it. And then turning around and going home to there old pick up.

I can tempt a taken boy, so any girl could probably temp my taken boy. Its that simple. I don't think anything lasts forever. It's a myth. Its a fairy tale we want to believe, one we search for. We pray that this one could be our forever. But he in most cases he rarely is. What is forever? A lazy word that everyone says to make there partner feel secure. "W'ell be together forever" I'll love you forever" "You'll be forever in my heart" But we say so many things that are scripted, its what the other person wants to hear. And we probably want it to be the truth. I seen forever in my eyes two weeks into the relationship. I meant it. Im not sure if he did. But he played a song with his words, plucking the cords of my heart. He knew it would hypnotize me, he knew it would capture me. Maybe at that moment he meant it. But it faded.And if it was really forever. Can forever fade?


I am not always so cynical and jaded. Tomorrow my hope will be back. Tomorrow I will be in love with love again. Today Im just thinking with the other half of my brain. We all do it some times. I am not depressed lol..so please don't comment that its sad or whatever. lol Its part of life, and at some point in your life your will agree with this post lol.

P.s girls can be just as bad..right break :(

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's so true tho. most of the time GUYS Only tell you waht you want to hear.. not what they really wanna tell you.. love is so overrated now a days.. if you dont have someone.. people think there is something wrong with you..

Anthony said...

What you say is totally true and very much realistic - nothing does last forever. Suffering is also universal and can affect anyone no matter who you are. This is a Buddhist belief - a belief many people say is pessimistic. In my opinion though, it's merely a realistic view of life.

Realizing that yourself doesn't make you jaded or cynical. It makes you much more wiser than most people who deny it. Nothing does last forever. As we recieve things and enjoy them, we need to be able to not dwell on things when we lose them too.

I could write a long-winded response to this post, but I'd simply hate to put you to sleep. lol.

I was going to add you to my msn when I realized you didn't have one. Hook a brother up, will ya?!

heh.

=)

Break said...

THATS RIGHT! you better make some exceptions.

i think what happens is that most people just get lazy and use the same words. Or they get confused with crushes, lusts, and all that other temporal stuff.
I think i could honestly say that i loved that girl forever. No matter what stupid thing she had done i knew before hand what her main faults were and i was already ready to deal with them on a daily basis. Her mom and sister even asked me plenty of times how i did it. "God, she's lucky she has you, i would have left her a long time ago!"

So yeah! don't give up hope. The right one out there is never an easy find. If all guys were all great and perfect then the great and awesome guys NOW wouldn't stand out the way they do.

missy said...

Your last line reminds me of a Fiona Apple song...

I’ve been a bad bad girl,
I’ve been careless with a delicate man.
And it’s a sad sad world,
When a girl can break a boy
Just because she can.


Fiona speaks the truth!