First night in our apartment

I am actually typing this off line. At the moment we do not have the internet. But soon, hopefully. I spent the first night in my apartment, Donnie and I. And I couldn’t sleep, I guess it’s the new surroundings, my whole body and mind is disorientated. I heard every noise, and the smell was different. It seemed darker than most nights. Our apartment is completely chaotic, boxes upon boxes, big blue garbage bags holding my prized possessions; my clothes. I can’t even think straight when I stand in our kitchen/living room, you can barely see the floor, and we have to tip-toe around everything. I don’t even know how we will get everything in order and organized. It’s overwhelming.

We arrived in Halifax a little after 9; we unloaded the car and then headed to Sobey’s to do our first grocery shopping excursion. I was estimating a 200 bill, and everything thought we were crazy. They were sure that we would spend double that. But our grand total was 197.67, and my sisters gave us a $20 gift certificate. So it was even cheaper. After we got home and put everything away, we remember a few items that we had forgotten, but I think we did fantastic. It only took us close to hours. Haha. I can’t believe we were shopping in a grocery store that long. My cupboards and refrigerator still look bare.

I woke up when Donnie was leaving for work, which was 5:30 am. I was awake way long before that, but I decided if I couldn’t sleep I might as well get up and get started. I have been cleaning for almost 10 hours. I didn’t even take any breaks. I sat down for 10 mins to eat a bowl of cereal. I know I accomplished a lot but I still feel I didn’t make a dent.

I started with the bath. And scrubbed everything down, even the walls and the door. Everything was dusty and gross. Then I hung up our colorful shower curtain and began folding and putting away our towels and linens. Tough thing to accomplish because we have limited amount of storage in this apartment. There is one closet in the whole apartment, no coat closet, not broom closet. We have like 6 cupboards and 3 drawers.

The bathroom is pretty much finished, I just have some pictures and a hand towel rod to hang. But the kitchen is another story. It is still in progress. I washed all the cupboard inside and out. And cleaned the store and oven, I am living the inside of the oven for Donnie, it is disgusting!! I had to wash most of our dishes, and take them all out of the boxes and packages. We have so much garbage piled up in our bedroom. Everything is being stored in the bedroom. We are currently sleeping in the living room on the futon. We are going back home on the weekend to bring the rest of our stuff down, including my comfy bed. I had a lot of trouble again with the storage. We just don’t have enough room for everything. We are going to have to buy a microwave stand with shelves in it. And buy a wardrobe, and maybe some sort of storage unit for our broom, mop, bucket and other stuff. But I don’t even think we have enough room for all of that. The apartment is lets say cozy. Which actually means that it is tiny. We’ll see how it turns out, and if we can fix everything.

I am so worried about finding a job. I am really nervous about job interviews, and I don’t really feel like I am ready to work in the field I studied for. It’s a big step from working in retail.
We left Ice in Moncton until we come back on the weekend to get him. I am glad we didn’t take him this time because he would of went mad with all the chaos. I miss him, I know I will feel better when he is here with me. He’s like my little baby.
I made pasta salad tonight, for tomorrow’s supper. And a garden salad for tonight. We having that and homemade pita pizzas. I am getting hungry, I can’t wait for Donnie to come home. He’s so cute he has called me like 5 times to check up on me. I am feeling a little lonely, but my sisters and mom have called me. I can’t wait until we get our house phone hooked up. I can’t wait for my bed. And our new couch, a rug and to be able to see the ugly floor.

Hit the road Jack

Days before we leave for Halifax things just seem to be falling apart. Our Brand New camera broke. We didn't even have it for 2 weeks. And yesterday Donnies car broke. And when he was taking it to his dads work to fix it, something on his tire broke and he went into the ditch.

Donnies dad was supose to be moving down all our big things today, but know they have to spend all day working on his car. So I am not sure if we are still going to be moving on Tuesday like planned.

We are both quiet stressed out. Im an finished work. Which feels great. Two girls from work chiped in and bought me a mop bucket full of cleaning supplies. There was tons of stuff. Thye must fo spent like 50 bucks. And then my boss bought me 4 towels and a box of cholates. And Catherine bought me a cordless phone. And my familys have a family night for me, including nick, and donnie. Which is going to be fun.

I also graduated. I didn't actually attend the ceremony. I really didn't care to go, I barely know anyone and I hated the school. My mom bought me a purse, a pair of dres pants, and some headbands for graduating. I love presents.

I wanted to go to the mall today and pick up some more things, and maybe go Donnie a cheering up present. I was gonna get him a new hat, or a hoodie. We'll see tho, its kind of cool out and sooooo windy. I just want to stay inside all day. I am hoping they will fix Donnies car today. I haven't really see him all week.

Last night we went to Boo at the Zoo, which was really fun. I actually got scared quite a few times. My little sister laura came with me and Donnie, and his sister Jerrica and Catherine. We had a blast. It was cold ou, but we still had a lot of fun. We took tons of pictures of course!!! I was pissed tho that we didn't have our new camera with us. Bummer

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beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Pictures from our new camera. Yay!

5 dollar cab ride

Donnie and I spent thanksgiving apart, he is in Halifax working and Im at home. This is our first thanksgiving with many more to come, but I am bummed that we wasn't here to spend it with me. When I last called him he was on his way to our apartment to eat kraft dinner and go to bed at 6pm. The poor boy is pooped out. He works such long hours. 12 hours shifts, then usually goes home and sleeps like 3 hours and got back in and works 12 more hours. I couldn't do that! I don't even think I will be able to bear to work 8 hours shifts a day. Yuck. I don't think I was meant to be a working women lol

I babysat tonight to make some extra cash, any penny extra I can earn is a big help. We are desperately broke, all our money goes on bills and towards the apartment. I really need to start saving for our first rent and groceries.

My mom bought me a mop, Kleenex, light bulbs, a set of wicker baskets and 2 folding wooded standing trays. I was very excited. We have pretty much everything we need for the apartment. But there are thousands of things I want still.

Im scared about Ice, Im worried the move will be really hard on him.He'll have to sit in the car for a 3 hour drive and then get used to a new apartment with out his family. I hope he likes it. I tell him everyday that hes moving, and that he will love it. I like to think he can understand me.

Donnie and Ice are soo cute together. They rub there heads together. Its adorable.

Heres a cute picture of Ice and Bam. They don't get along at all, so we were surprised to come home and see them laying together on Lauras bed.

A big daze!

Highlights of October

• We got our futon today!
• Our dell computer and digital camera order is all messed up. I have spent the last 3 days on the phone will Dell tryin to figure it out. I think we have like 3 computers and 3 digital cameras on order. I have no idea how that happened.
• My room is a diaster, boxes and garbage bags every wheres.
• On Saturday we packed Donnies car with 2 big book shelves, boxes, clothes, and our buys from that week and sent them down to Halifax.
• Ive been doing my last week of school at home independantly. Which I haven't been working on it very well. I think Im leaving it all to the last minute.
• Im broke. And it was so depressing going to the mall with my sister. Seeing all the new fall clothes out, that I couldn't buy. I don't even have enough money to buy deordorant and shampoo. Im poor.
• Im trying to fight this cold Ive had for 2 weeks now. I just can't seem to get rid of it.

I love shopping....

Donnie and I order a laptop and a new digital camera. Yippie! It will be here in 2 weeks. Can't wait.

Soon to be on our own

So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.

I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.

Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.

Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.


This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.

We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.

Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.

Soon to be on our own

So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.

I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.

Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.

Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.


This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.

We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.

Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.

Soon to be on our own

So many things are happening in my life at the point. My stress level is raising. I am working independantly at home on my last class, untop of doing extra work for the church. I start my REAL on the job on Oct.11 and finish oct.31. And then I am moving to halifax. We have the apartment and we have been moving our things down, each time donnie goes down to work.

I have been shopping like a mad women. We are pretty much prepared. There are still some minor things we need. We have been couch shopping. And we might also be ordering a Dell computer. I have been job searching. Which is scary. I had an opportnity for a job interview but I was unable to make it to Halifax. So I will probably just save applying for jobs once I am moved down there. It will be much easier.

Im a little disopointed with the apartment, its just not what I imagined in my head. Its smaller, and uglier. And we live in the boonies. We live like 7 minutes from Bayers Lake. But theres woods every wheres. And like nothing near us. I am fearful, becasue I will need to depend on donnie for eveything. He will be my means for everything. Which im scared might puts stress on our relationship.

Everything that is going on is very overwhelming. But Donnie has been so supportive and sympathic, he is amazing. I feel so blessed. And so incredibly happy to have him in my life. He makes me smile, and has this calming effect on me. He knows exactly the right words to make me feel better. And he just motivates me to be a better person. I am so excited to move in with him, I am anxious, I am terrified. But its all good. I feel like this is really what I need. This is going to be great for us.


This weekend we went to Halifax for the Stones Concert. IT POURED. We stood in the rain for 7 hours. I was soo cold, every inch of my body shiver. But I seen Kanye West and he was amazing. I was sooo stoked. He performed with so much enegry. He rapped even better than on the cd. And he looked so hot. We only stayed for like 4 of the Rolling stones songs. I was just soo cold, Donnie was scared I was gonna pass out. But it was worth it, we had alot of fun. And we met some really cool people.

We bought some more stuff for the apartment. An eletric Skillet and 3 huge blue glasses they were on sale, for both it came to $8.99. We have been so lucky finding really good deals. We ordered a futon, which should be arriving next week sometime.And Donnies Aunt gave us a toaster,which was sweet. We stayed at her house for the weekend. She asked us to sleep in sperate rooms, but donnie snuck into my room when she feel asleep. I felt so naughty, but I really wanted to sleep with him.

Pretty soon we will be able to cuddle all night in our OWN APARTMENT.

Cat and I took our famous late night drives. She picked me up at 11 ish and I positive this would not be turning into a late night. But, of course, it did. Silly me. We were out until 2:30. We drove for a while and then decided to forfill our cravings for chocolate cake with boiled icing. We drove to Sailsbury to the Big stop. I was all decked out in my bright pink pj pants, fake uggs and a big green hoodie. I looked beautiful lol. But I felt rather undressed. But what the heck, its just an Trucker resturaunt.

We were basically the only ones there. We ordered a cold plate and shared it. But it took 10 mins of pleading. And We shared a bleberry cheese cake. DELISH!! Through out our meal we played "The orignal IQ TESTER" Its a block of wood with I think 14 holes and you stick little pegs into 13 of the holes. Then you jump the pegs, removing the one you had jumped. Like checkers...sort of. Anyways you try to get down to one. I got down to two 3 times. Cat only made it to 3. She was a tad jealous lol. I can't help it that I am "above average iq" and shes "just soso" lol.

I didn't get in bed until like 3 am. Guess who didn't go to school the nest day?? Amanda.

I just finshed my exam, and now Im home being bored. I going to the mall with my sister to look around. I have money... not much, but I want to spend it.lol

times ticking away

Donnie just dropped me off at my house it is 1:25 am. We went to Jessika and Nick's apartment to watch some movies and just chill. We watched "From Dusk to Dawn" I thought it was kind of corny but still cool. Its soo hard to pick a movie when its us 4. Because we've all seen too many movies.

I worked all weekend, which actually went by sort of quickly. But today my body feels real stiff and my bones keep cracking. I feel like an old lady. It was fairly busy at work, yet still boring. Back to school brings out everyone.

Last night I had a sleep over at Donnies. We made bbq chicken pizza. It was almost ruined because donnie's mom doesn't have a cheese grater. I've never met anyone who does not have a cheese grater. Donnie drove to sobeys, which was close, then zellers, closed, and shoppers which didn't sell any. So he came home empty handed and fuming. In the end we cut the cheese in really thing slices and placed them on the pizza. It didn't really melt right but it still tasted good.

Im dreading going back to school. I hate this class. Its too much talking for me. We have a lot of useless homework. Like looking up definitions, and grammar sheets. Plus we have 3 oral presentations. OUCH. I hate public speaking. HATE IT. And the teacher checks our homework and makes us go around the room an answer out loud all the questions. I feel like I am back in elementary school not college. I feel so anxious in this class. I dread going.

Tomorow is a holiday! I finally get to sleep in!! Yippee!!! I hope its sunny. And I hope we do something really fun!!!


19 more days until I see KANYE!!!

The life of a Butterfly

Yesterday was mine and Donnie's 6 month anniversary. I feels a lot longer than that. I feels like it has been years rather then months. Things are wonderfully great! Donnie bought use Rolling stones concert tickets for my anniversary present. I haven't bought Donnie's present yet, I have been broke, my loan should be here anyday, if not I get paid on Thursday. Donnie has changed his mind every week about what he wants. First it was some tool, then an airbrush, many things for his car. I wonder what he will want next week.

My school year is wrapping up. I have like 2 months left, with is exciting. I've been so frustrated. But I got great news for the career service girls. I have been referred and my resume has been sent to a really swanky Law Firm. To be an advertising assistant. Just to be chosen out of all my class to ahve the chance to work there, is awesome. It will look so great on my resume. It just a placement for 2 months. But I would get paid, monday to friday 9-5. I am so excited. Hopefully I'll get it.

We didn't do much last night, were both broke. We played tennis. But I got snappy, because Donnies been playing Tennis in Halifax when hes down there for work. He thinks hes like really good now. So he makes me feel stupid. Telling me to hit the ball this way, hold my racket this way, stand farther back in the box. I didn't think I was that bad. Im really good at serving. I would say Im decent. But he made me feel like I sucked. So after a while I got cranky and started smashing the balls over the fence lol. He didn't like that much. So the game ended. We played for about an hour.

The rest of the night we just chilled. We went to the mall, to my work to get a baby outfit for my Cousin, he shower is on Sunday. And we just looked around. Then we came home and watch a Alfie. It was pretty good.

Anyways work time.

Pictures from Halifax

One day down, a million more to go!

Rolling Stone here we come. Donnie and I went to Halifax yesterday to pick up Rolling stone tickets. I enjoy there music and think they will put on a great show, but the real reason I am going is to see Kanye West. He is one of the opening acts. Ive always wanted to see him in Concert. Him and Mariah Carey are my number ones!!!

We spent the day in Halifax and it was perfect! Just the mini getaway that I needed. It was a beautiful day and we both looked hot! lol. We got a free meal at Maxwell's Plum with our tickets. And we went shopping. We both bought a couple shirts and Donnie got some new kicks. Its so hard for him to find sneakers cuz he takes a size 13!!

I met Donnies great aunt. Were staying at her place when we go back down next month for the concert. Very nice lady, but omg she has huge Knockers!!

We also got to watch the buskers down on the water front. They come every year. And I always wanted to go. Its a group of street people who perform all day for like a week. And its free. We watched crazy hulahoop girls. A man get out of a straight jacket. A man balance on a 12 foot pole and juggle knifes. And break dancers. There was soo much more, but we got hungry! So we walked around for like an hour trying to decide on a restaurant. In the end we tried Applebees. I order a stir fry, it started off good. Look fabulous. But then I tasted the sauce, it was pukrid!! It was like spicy orange. But it tasted like orange peels with pepper and hot stuff lol. It made me sick to my stomach. But I had chocolate cake with boiled icing, that cheered me up.

Oh yea when we were on the waterfront. I get a henna tattoo. It was 5 bucks, and now I know why it was soo cheap. It was suppose to be this weird butterfly design, it was cute. But no it looks like someone drew it on with a permant marker and it looks like a weird lobster!!! I hate. I got it on my wrist. I should of just bought the stuff to do it yourself, that was donnie's idea, but I didn't listen!!!

Donnie made the day so perfect for me, he paid for everything, he was a great tour guide, and he did everything I wanted. And he catered to me all day. He was amazing, and Im even more in love with him now.

He completely made my summer, just with that one day.!

Somethings Gotta Give!!!!

Maybe I was not meant to be happy, and to live a fun and exciting life. God has kicked me in the butt this summer. I have actually done NOTHING. The one summery thing I have done is gone to the beach and we didn't even sim because there were too many jelly fish.

We had plans to go to the drive in this weekend. Each weekend for the past 4 or 5 weekends we planned to go and something always got in our way. This weekend I was sure we were going. But I was on call and OF COURSE they needed me. Canceled! We planned to go camping. We didn't go because it rained all weekend. We wanted to go to PEI, couldn't get the time off. Anything we planned was ruined because we had no money, the weather sucked or I couldn't get the time off.

I am soo depressed. My summer sucks. My life sucks. I hate school. And I wish I could love it. I wish I could be dedicated and love waking up to go to school. But no half of the days I can't get my butt out of bed. I hate my work. Its depressing and boring. And Im always on call, waiting around , wasting my day, waiting to see if they need me to work. I can never get time off to do ANYTHING. I never have money. Never. Donnies always in Halifax when I need him, or somethings going on. I don't even have friends anymore, everyone has seemed to have found there path and ran away.

I feel like my summer consisted of renting movies and making pizzas. We did do a lot of walking. The only place I went this summer was amhesrt, 45 mins away. For a funeral. Party!

Honestly I am down in the dumps. And I have been for a while. The only good thing in my life is my family and Donnie. And I am lashing out on him and pushing him away. I guess its how I deal. Which obviously isn't right. But hes been incredible. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.

....simple

Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.

Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.

Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!

Congrats Jessika!!

Girls and two boys
Me and My Dad
Baby Jacob
Josh Jacob and Cherie
Me and Gillian
The weekend has past, and it was a long one. No Donnie and a long working weekend.

Jessika's grad party was great. More people showed up then I expected. I was surprised to see my cousin Cherie who's pregnant. I have not see her in a while, it was it was nice, and seeing her big belly was crazy. Its still crazy to think she will be a mother in 2 months. It made me happy to see all my family. We all got along great. Here are some pictures.

Donnie will be home in roughly 24 hours. Can't wait. Literaly!!!!

i can't even feel the summer breeze

Donnie called me yesterday morning to inform me that his shifts change this week so he will be inHalifax until tuesday. Which means we will be apart for 8 days. Which is depressing to think about, I really miss him this week. I have been sick with the flu and just more moody than usual and catherine gone all week to visit a friend in Bathurst. So, Im a lonely girl.

My sisters grad party is this sunday, and I am of course disappointed that Donnie won't be there. He hasn't met many of my extended family, and I really wanted him too. Im not sure how many people will come, because no one likes to come to Moncton. We always have to go to them. Im not sure if Im going to pick jessika up something, I already gave her a gift. I think thats enough. And not to sound selfish, but she never bought me a grad present. I have a feeling I am going to have to work. Hopefully it will just be a short shift.

I need to get away soon. I haven't been anywheres this summer and it driving me crazy. It doesn't even feel like summer, working and school. And never having any money to do anything. I hate it. Its a terrible summer. And its almost over, it feels like it just begun. Argh

Im so bored I guess I will go put a movie on and wait for Donnie to give me a call. Not that I have anything interesting to say to him. I just love to hear his voice.


ciao

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