with love ?

How do you explain whats happening in your brain and in your heart?
When everyone around you sees the basic, but cannot understand the power.
They can not feel the lifetime of pain set upon breaking bones.
Because there one day of pain only angers your eternity.
Drink you tears up so you don't run out.
You think by blowing your nose you can breath. But what do you do when that breath slowly ceases?
My shoulders are heavy, my heart is shrinking.
My life is nothing as it seems.
In a shell we all live.
Blinking as the lights flash. Blinking because its a habit.
I think too much, I try to decipher it all.
I am not capable to let go.
We will never move on. We will learn to fake it. Learn to live the way they think we should live.
And in the end, once our hearts heal, they will break again.