Wow. So this was takend @ our grade 7 prom at Lewisville Middle. Oh how we have changed. And I must say Im looking Ugly lol. 

He said it, not me.

This is now the 3rd poem writen for me, which is flattering. Damn I must be doing something write. I wont say who wrote it. But hes a cool guy!

It is not her fault, this tough outer wall The blame belongs on others, they push hoping she’ll fall Yet she remains anchored, she’s stubborn times ten She won’t show weakness, but she talks…I see it then



I have not seen her, but I have met her soul Many discussions later, I’ve discovered a hole She smiles in pictures, looks good on tape But she needs rescued, she needs a man with a cape




Her hero is out there, yet to be told He is needed to solve a crime, her heart can’t go cold She doesn’t believe in love, she needs to be shown It exists deep inside, it won’t show on its own



She deserves to be cuddled, her hand held firm Her beauty can’t be explained, not with a gesture or term But it is the spirit inside, that has me seeing blue I hear it’s amazing, and others say its true


So smile for us Amanda, we love to see you shine It’s this inner warmth, that’s made you a friend of mine

I wanna be a rolling stone.

So the motivation has finally arrive. Its like I had to mail it to myself. And you know how slow the may can be, so it took years. Anyways my motivation is help me loss weight not actually loss it. My goal is to tone my body, loss 20 pounds and just feel healthier. Im pretty content with my body, but I would like to feel excited about my body. I bought a new bathing suit, well actually its a bikini, but shhhhh...I hate the word bikini. It sooo scary. Now I didn't really need another one, but it was on sale and pretty. And basically I buy everything in my site thats on sale and pretty whether I need it or not. I tried it on and man was I not hot . Lol. To much stuff hanging and rolling where is shouldn't be hanging and rolling.
Well I made a list of things I should be doing, like walking an 1 hour a day. Crunches,and drinking alot of water. These are the simple things. My downfalls are eating out too much and snacking too much! Food makes me Happy! I love to rent a movie and buy tons of food. Chips, pizza, cookies, candy, and ice cream. It such a habit to sit in front of the t.v and dig into some sort of snack. Its like the two believe together.
Now for my walking everyday. I have been making excuses lately. But trust me they are sufficient excuses. Well all know its June and what comes with June? June bugs. Im terrified of those buzzing things. Yuck just thinking about them makes me quiver. Another excuse I use is I work alot, and Im always tired.So I nap soo much. Napping has become a hobby of mine. My favorite time of the day to nap is from 2 until 6. Don't get my wrong my naps aren't "power naps" as my mom would referred to them. 15 mins does squat. I need atleast 2 hours. Yummy. The fan blowing on me, a strip of sun light beaming through my winding and my cat purring in my ear. Heaven!
Anyways so by the time I awake from my beauty nap, Im too relaxed to go for a walk. This is where Mr. Motivation comes in. Oh please I need him Help. Summer is here in my eyes. And I look like a potato.

Any other news in my life? Well the Rolling Stones are Coming to Monctn, and its official everyone in the martimes is going except for me. The hotel is booked solid and my boss will not allow anyone to book time off that weekend. So really had no choice. I guess I could of quit my job to see the stones. I bet it would of been well worth it!! Oh well, I need my money...

It better today than tomorow

Saturday night was spent moncton' s little naughty pleasure. Oxygen, or as moncton folk call O2.I of course bought a new outfit, any excuse to buy clothes is fine in my book. I had a rather good time. The music was pumpin and I liked more then half the songs. Jon and I took over the stage. Which is one of my favorite places in the whole building. Sure it where most of the skanks hover and little kiddies tryin to impress any guy with there girl on girl dance action. But I like it up there because there plenty of room. And I can see everyone and well of course they can see me. And we all know I have wicked dance moves. Hahaha. Im exaggerating. I just love going to 02 in the summer because you get to see everyone. Its like a mini highschool reunion. But once the clock hits 1:30 I always bail, its like the time in my mind goes off, I can only handle so much. And I always have to the work the next morning. But that never stops me from going out. Im a trooper. I am even sick, i have been for over 2 weeks. Plagued with a chest infection and sinus infection. I needed to flee from my house.I can only handle so much laying around sleeping watching tv and eat popsicles.
I returned to work today, I still feel sick but a girls gotta pay off her debuts. It was rather slow, I had a lot of stays. But I of course got the worst rooms. One room had food plastered everywheres and it stunk like skunk..How do you like that? It funny even with the messiet rooms i still manage to be finshed early. So I si]at in my last room and watched some t.v.It was so weird home renovation show. But all the women did was hang up new blinds and dances around a lot. Don't get me wrong, I watch tv all day, I just don't sit down and watch it.
I have a whole schedule of tv shows to watch. Through out the week its the today show and Regis and Kelly all morning. After lunch its a bit of the view, a make over story, and the shopping bags. And then Jackie and I watch our favorite show e-love. Its about two people who talk online and met in person. Its crazy because they usually always fall in love. And I don't know if I believe you can fall in love with some over the internet, but it sure is comedy to me. And if its a long day I top it off with Oprah. The weekends are a little different. I only watch shows in the morning. Saturdays are Gilmore girls and Miss match. And on Sunday its Judging Amy and Provindence. Then usually its just much music because there never anything good on tv on the weekends. Maybe movies here and there. Oh I work at a hotel as a housekeeper. Meaning I clean rooms.
Well enough is enough a sick girl needs her rest.

"Piece"

Dirty dancing in his eyes.
Loosen the buckle one more hole.
She's fantastic when she kicks her laughter off the walls.
She's incredible when she flaunts the juice she's got.
He looks at his hands, theres no work to hold.
Lost in the reflection of her dangling ear ring.
Shes got a heart crossed out on the bottom of her left foot.
If he asked her to dance, would she accept?
Could they dance on the clouds, emerged in secret words?
Its like a soft memory whispered in his ear.
She is now a snap shot in his mind.
A glimmer of light cataloged to the date.
Tie your shoelace before you trip
The night is cold and dark and you aren't getting any younger
The cab meter is raising.
Life can't always have meaning.

In the begining

So Ive been alittle T-oed, I ve been waiting for 3 weeks to get my bonus. And of course I have a list a spring clothes to buy, cds movies book the whole shabang!But my bonus didn't come in, due to my boss not doing her job. I don't want to rant to much about work, because I read in the newspaper, that people can be fire, if they say rude things about there boss. Or put down the job. I can't imagine my boss surfing the web. So I think Im good to go.
Im quite excited for the hodeo tomorow! Everyones home from the long weekend, gettin tanked and looking hot. Sounds like a ball to me!



Song Im listneing to now----> scars- papa roach