Saturday, December 17, 2005

check yes or no.

I forgot to mention the most crucial part of my story. I day that I finally had a semi conversation with my lover, I looked horible. Ekks. Its Murphys Law right. The one day you aren't prepare, and looking your worst you see the guy you are crushing on. It was exam day, so I sort of rolled out of bed. I supose I didn't look that bad, but I didn't look my best.

Im trying to figure out why Im so childish towards this crush, I tend to me cool and collective. I tend to be smooth and not so shy towards guys. But, in this case I feel like Im in grade school, pointing at him and giggling. Butterflies in my stomach. I barely know this guy and Im dreaming about him, planning each word I might say to him. There just something about him that has attached itself to me. I feel like I was put under a spell. Maybe its because this is the first real crush I have had since my ex. The first real attraction and interest I have shown in a guy. Its been so long, I don't know what to do with myself.

I've been inhaling a box of chocolate cover cherrys, I almost feel dizzy. I need a break lol.:0)

4 comments:

Reese The Law Girl said...

OMG, I totally understand where you're coming from. I have a crush right now and I always feel like so lame when I talk to him. Like a kid or something. Maybe that's just how it is with crushes?

Mr. Shife said...

Good luck and the guy is probably feeling the same way.

Deshaun said...

Yeah I know where you're coming from also!
And reese is right, thats kind of how it all works.

Miss.Q said...

crushes are soo tiring lol... my mind is always running.
I hope he likes me. We'll see I guess. I just need to stop being soo shy... its not that Im shy, its that Im thinking to much.