Monday, April 24, 2006
He seduced me.
I try not to compare this relationship with my old one, but I ocasionally tend to do that. Actually I do it a lot. There are of course good and bad things, but I am trying to focus on the good things. I will admit I am not falling as fast for Donnie as I had for Mark. But whose to say that's a bad thing. With Donnie I feel like things are running smoothly, my feelings for him are flourishing at a calming pace for me. And for once I am relaxed in this relationship. I may of loved Mark more than anything in this world, but I was always walking on egg shells. I was filled with anxiety.
Donnie makes me feel secure with everything around me and I don't worry that tomorrow he will be mad with me, or he will see another girl he likes, or hes online chatting with girls. I trust him 100 percent and my mind isn't even occupying those bad thoughts.
We are complete opposites, hes everything Im not. Hes shy, caring, giving, quiet, always thinking about others and always trying to please me. I on the other hand am selfish, loud, sarcastic, bossy and outgoing. I tell it how I see it and sometimes drill it into your head until you want to beat me. But I try to be a better person because of him. I see the way he treats me, which is even at all times. Hee hasn't lost his cool, or got mad at me. Hes always kind and caring. And always gives me what I want.
I am happy with this relationship. I think I might keep him around for a while.
Donnie makes me feel secure with everything around me and I don't worry that tomorrow he will be mad with me, or he will see another girl he likes, or hes online chatting with girls. I trust him 100 percent and my mind isn't even occupying those bad thoughts.
We are complete opposites, hes everything Im not. Hes shy, caring, giving, quiet, always thinking about others and always trying to please me. I on the other hand am selfish, loud, sarcastic, bossy and outgoing. I tell it how I see it and sometimes drill it into your head until you want to beat me. But I try to be a better person because of him. I see the way he treats me, which is even at all times. Hee hasn't lost his cool, or got mad at me. Hes always kind and caring. And always gives me what I want.
I am happy with this relationship. I think I might keep him around for a while.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Its all in my eyes!
I just finished a week off from school, and I was busy everyday. It just flew by. Ive been working a lot, well a lot more than I am used to. And my body's exhausted. I skipped school today because I couldn't even keep my eyes open. Right now I am actually thinking about going back to bed until I work tonight at 6.
I have been planning out the Bachelorette party which is Saturday. I have spent so much money. I am getting bitter about this party because the other bridesmaid, hasn't really brought anything, and hasn't been helping to plan it. I am in the midst of making Penis nametags. But I am not sure if they really look like penises. I used peach colored felt and brown pompoms. There kind of cute, they will be attached to the girls shirts with cloth pins. I also made Terri's veil thingy to wear all night. Its made it with a Tiara and white material and I dyed the material pink at the bottom. Ive been wearing it aorund the house!!!
I haven't seen Donnie since Friday, Im either working or at school or sleeping. But I think its sort of a good thing, because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed with him. I don't want to be in that relationship where you spend every day together and do every little thing together. I had that before and it didn't turn out so well. I want to be in a relationship when its cool to hang out with our separate friends, and its ok to go a few days with out seeing each other. I want to be able to hang out with a group of our friends, not just me and him. But he doesn't have any friends up here, so its a drag. Sometimes I feel guilty because I go hang out with my friends, he just stays home, and does whatever he does.
Being in a relationship is bringing out a lot of emotions I don't like feeling. It has its good side of course too.
You know what I want, I want a vacation. A real one. Do you remember when you were a kid and nothing ABSOLUTELY nothing matter. Time was the last thing on our minds. I want that feeling back. I want to run around, do whatever I want and not have to worry that at 6 p.m. I have to work and the next morning I have school. I guess that is a big part of being an adult. You have a schedule, that you must follow or there are consequences. Wouldn't it be great to hop on a plane and go to a tropical place, and the only things on your schedule are tanning, swimming and eating. Not a worry in those big blue skies would be for me. That would be fantasic. Im gonna to back to bed and dream about that.
I have been planning out the Bachelorette party which is Saturday. I have spent so much money. I am getting bitter about this party because the other bridesmaid, hasn't really brought anything, and hasn't been helping to plan it. I am in the midst of making Penis nametags. But I am not sure if they really look like penises. I used peach colored felt and brown pompoms. There kind of cute, they will be attached to the girls shirts with cloth pins. I also made Terri's veil thingy to wear all night. Its made it with a Tiara and white material and I dyed the material pink at the bottom. Ive been wearing it aorund the house!!!
I haven't seen Donnie since Friday, Im either working or at school or sleeping. But I think its sort of a good thing, because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed with him. I don't want to be in that relationship where you spend every day together and do every little thing together. I had that before and it didn't turn out so well. I want to be in a relationship when its cool to hang out with our separate friends, and its ok to go a few days with out seeing each other. I want to be able to hang out with a group of our friends, not just me and him. But he doesn't have any friends up here, so its a drag. Sometimes I feel guilty because I go hang out with my friends, he just stays home, and does whatever he does.
Being in a relationship is bringing out a lot of emotions I don't like feeling. It has its good side of course too.
You know what I want, I want a vacation. A real one. Do you remember when you were a kid and nothing ABSOLUTELY nothing matter. Time was the last thing on our minds. I want that feeling back. I want to run around, do whatever I want and not have to worry that at 6 p.m. I have to work and the next morning I have school. I guess that is a big part of being an adult. You have a schedule, that you must follow or there are consequences. Wouldn't it be great to hop on a plane and go to a tropical place, and the only things on your schedule are tanning, swimming and eating. Not a worry in those big blue skies would be for me. That would be fantasic. Im gonna to back to bed and dream about that.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Running out of time
I have a bacherlette party to plan, which is in like 10 days. Well its not just me, but the other bridesmaid, which i have been emailing and trying to get together to plan this out, but we haven't. Im alittle ticked off, because nothing I MEAN nothing is planned. I don't even have many ideas?!!!And little money! Im stressing. Any ideas?????? HELP I know we are going to someone's place, party talk...games? Then to the clubs.
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